the-undergraduate

• Last day :(

  Posted: June 24, 2009, 8:41 pm

  Il miss driving school :'(
  Am in love,in love with the Faws :(
  How id have loved to drive the sexiest and biggest of them all one last time for old times sake *sigh*
  il miss my friends,students,instructors and staff :(
  Il miss trying to dodge some of the older trucks,il miss 'mswahili's' lunchtime vibe :(.i learnt quite alot from him and he took me to the ghettos,showed me a world i never knew existed
  Il miss getting teased esp when i remember there was a time the instructors said i was barned from giving or taking any numbers from my classmates lol!Just yesterday one of them complained that everytime 'aki jenga nyumba ya gorofa anabomolewa' by the other guys i hangout with lol!i guess thats what happens when you're in a class with few chics
  Il miss the special treatment always being given first priority in picking the trucks i wanted
  Il miss being welcomed with a smile and firm handshake on arrival
  Il miss the fact that people actually took time to findout how you were doing and were always there to help you out whenever you needed to get something sorted
  Il miss the crushes,il miss the stories
  Il miss my morning and evening walks to the mats stage
  Il miss the scandals,il miss the undercover operations and trade that takes place on a daily basis
  Il miss it all,il miss them all
  I wanna go back already :'(
  They all made my summer one to remember
  
  Cheers y'all,il be missing ya
  Glory you rock

• June 22

  Posted: June 21, 2009, 11:02 pm

  Tommorrow a new year begins for me...am excited il spend my bday catching up on sleep cos i havent had a slow day for sometime
  Morning could however change that should i decide to give into the randomness streak that i seem to have bit into hard
  It's finally time to shed the heavy shell us cancers carry around,time to phase out familiarity and tread into unknown waters
  
  Like someone once said...it's time to 'eat' life with a big spoon lol!am guessing that was a direct translation from kiswahili :)
  
  Am glad i found my happiness,got my smile back
  
  I wonder why am starting to sound polyanna like of late....hmmm :))

• Bonge la mtu

  Posted: June 19, 2009, 12:12 am

  I like my new friends,they always seem to make me smile even when the sky seems gloomy :)
  
  Too bad in a week most have to get back to their busy lifestyles and jobs so we cant spend a whole day chatting
  I like the debates especially that of young men and sugar mummies.Just when i think its done and we've all decided that dating someone who's old enough to be your parent aint cool, someone comes up with a new advantage everyday and the debate has been on for the last two weeks.
  
  Kinda reminds me of last week when some older guy sat next to me in a mat and tried chatting me up.Am trying to look busy and he drops the 'i hope hakuna jam' line and am thinking...hello its lunchtime!!Thika road is like a super highway then especially if you're moving out of town!!so he drops random vibe and am looking out of the window and nodding every now and then so he doesnt repeat the stories thinking i hadnt heard.Finally i get bored and pullout my phone to get on facebook and when he noticed i wasnt listening he also chucked his phone and dropped the driest line 'unaeza nisaidia ku check missed call?!'.Jeeze luise!!hadnt i just seen him scrolling through that same list as he was telling me to show him how to?!Noting he was already on the missed calls list i told him i didnt know how to since my phone is different and immediately the dude starts demonstrating how to.I asked why he was asking for help in the first place and he said he didnt know how to check what time the calls were made and asked if i could help with that too.I didnt even bother answering!!
  A few minutes later he asks for my name and i act like i hadnt heard so he started calling me 'shiro'.Ok...guys that whole vibe of calling a chic you dont jua by a random name hoping you guessed right aint even funny!!i lenga and dude goes like 'shiro unaweza nionesha ku save number kwa phone?unaeweza tumia tu number yako vile nimekuwa nikijaribu kuzisave lakini huwa sioni hizo number nikizitafuta baadaye'.I just stared at him and told him am not shiro na pia mimi sijui kusave number and the whole time am talking he's busy pretending to be writting something on his phone.I turned to look behind and noticed the guys sitted in back sit were giving me funny looks and my suspicions were confirmed.The dude just wanted to make it look like i was giving him my number to save face and make it seem like his game was on point.The rest of the journey was spent trying to ignore invitations to lunch and finally i just had to tell him to quit bugging me since i aint into old folk.Then he started on that vibe about how much he makes blah blah blah and he jua's us college girls like young 'boys' who cant treat us etc!!what the hell!!who said i wanted money and even if i did couldnt i just ask my parents if i was broke for whatever i wanted.Besides if i couldnt afford it then it's probably not worth it!!i hate that such men think they can have anything just cos they have some loose pocket change.I told him what i had was enough and he should stop bugging me since in the first place i chose to get into a 'hewa' matatu cos i wanted to listen to the music and not some boring vibe.And then he asks me,what type of music that is cos he really likes it and wanted to buy the album so he could watch it at home!*Roll eyes @ poor attempt to sound hip n relevant* did he seriously think that would jump start a conversation?!luckily someone chucked from the mat and i got to switch sits.unfortunately when i got to our stage and alighted he shouted 'bye shiro *waving his phone* wacha ni i'save kabla ifutike' and i was left trying to duck while the crowd at the stage must have wondered who that was and why babu ya mtu was saying goodbye to me!!Eeeeeewww!!
  Yuck!!ul never see me with a jibaba with kitu 8 kids who are even older than me cos it just seems creepy and disgusting too!!Afadhali nibaki maskini wa mungu if that's the only means :)
  
  Ps. If i ever meet any of my friends with a +58 year old baba like that ,it'll be the day i die of laughter.

• This is one week id like to ...

  Posted: June 19, 2009, 7:12 pm

  This is one week id like to rewind
  The way its ending leaves me trying to keep it together
  Kazi na kuziba ma cracks sijui kama ukuta itaja bomoka hivi karibuni

• Am back :)

  Posted: June 15, 2009, 11:27 pm

  ''kama ungekuwa wife wangu singewai tembea nawe mtaani sababu ningekuwa
  nimewamalizia wote wanaokuamkia kila upitapo''
  
  Teren teren teren whoop whoop, i know you missed me :)
  Ive not really been gone but for the longest time i only had time to post poetry
  
  I Love driving school!!Thats new when i used to dread the thought of driving.I still hate driving cars :p
  Am crazy for power and driving a huge Faw truck has made my lunchtime totally worth it :).I love the sweet engine roar and just the fact that when you're stuck in traffic its like you're up there overlooking the rest.Power doesnt only come with the engine because ive come to learn that on kenyan roads,trucks always have right of way lol!You might be criss crossing lanes and stalling on roundabouts but most drivers including matatus will go out of their way to steer clear knowing the kind of damage you could cause with a monster truck :)
  
  Kenyans also seem to have a thing about chics driving trucks.The number of times ive had guys staring,hooting,whistling,waving and just cheering is unbelievable.Last week my instructor kept asking me how come other students dont attract attention when they drive and i seem to have fans wherever i go.I have to admit am crazy about speed too so that could be one of the reasons :p
  
  Ive had memorable moments in that school and i'll really miss it when am through.Like i remember during my 2nd lesson i got this kinda cute instructor and immediately he got into the car my brain went on lock down and i completely forgot everything including how to turn on the indicator lights lol!!Thats was embarrasing!!He must have thought i was either completely ignorant when it came to cars or i was just trying to attract his attention lol!Once i got over my brain freeze and after having scrapped his rims on the sidewalk we ended up being pals though and i spent the rest of the week listening to him sweet talk his gal in that sweet coastarian swahili!
  
  Second week i was moved to my first truck and after a day i just wanted to scream and quit!I got the oldest one driven by the oldest instructor,a mzee who seems to have recently discouvered stunners!The thing about dark shades is that you can never know whether someone is looking at you but am sure he must have been rolling his eyes wondering why a 'gal' wanted to drive a lorry.That truck is a blast from the 80's with a speed limit of around 45km/hr and the man kept insisting i was overspeeding whenever i attempted going past 5km/hr.The steering wheel also seemed to be stuck cos to pull a sharp corner turn you literally had to be standing.I also hated the daily Q&A session where i had to answer so many Q's like this day id been given a different instructor and the old man gave me a lecture and insisted he needed to know who was stealing his student!The minute he asked me whether the other one was a kikuyu or mswahili i knew twas time for me to move on cos i didnt really see how i could be taking that kinda crap on a daily basis.
  >On a side note,atleast +90% of the instructors and support staff are from coast,i dont know why and dont really care cos am learning kiswahili ya pwani :pI finally got to change and was handed the keys to their newest and biggest truck and ever since its been pure bliss :)
  Unfortunately the old man went and complained about being given random students and stated that from tommorow he'll only teach the student he had been originally assigned and i really hope i dont have to downgrade to lorry za kubebea mawe za quarry as someone refers to them.
  I got to make new friends too among my classmates and after next week i'll miss them and hate to think i'll be getting back to my old boring schedule
  
  One day at a time

• Just like you

  Posted: June 14, 2009, 9:22 pm

  In you i find myself
  In you my sadness fades away
  In you my loneliness seems miles away
  In you i see the possibility of a better today
  In you i see hope that anything i dream could be possible
  In you am reminded of what life is and should be
  In you my comfort lies
  In you i want to live forever
  
  In your eyes lies a thousand stars
  In your smile the worlds' beauty defined
  In your heart,kindness and purity grows
  In your mind the most beautiful ideas are formed
  
  With you i want to see tomorrow
  With you i want to plan my life
  With you i want to live forever
  With you i want to fall in love through eternity
  With you i see myself till my last days in this world
  And if i should ever be gone
  I hope you know that with you i spent the best days of my life
  With you i found my happiness
  With you i found my reason to live,found my reason to smile

• Sorry :'(

  Posted: June 12, 2009, 7:59 pm

  I used to think i knew what being down to earth was all about
  I thought i knew what being kind and appreciative of others meant
  I thought i knew how to be friendly,knew how to be loving
  
  I even thought i knew quite alot about compromise
  Thought i knew how to thank those around me for all they did for me
  But now i know better
  
  Sad i had to loose quite alot before i realized all this
  Sad i cant get back what i want most
  
  If i could id change quite alot
  I wish i could get my life back on track,cos what i had is probably as close as perfect gets
  
  Am sorry
  
  Never again will i ever take anything fore granted
  Never again will i ever get too comfortable knowing that alot can change in under a minute

• Changes

  Posted: June 6, 2009, 1:01 am

  I kinda feel relieved
  Ive held my breath for so long i went past turning red to a darker shade closer to maroon fused with navy blue from lack of air
  
  Ive been stupid,ive been scared
  Ive been angry,ive been blinded by my innocense
  Ive been hopefull,ive had my dreams dashed
  Ive been to a point where i wondered whether it was really worth trying
  Didnt really want to think about tommorow cos it didnt really make sense to
  And yes i have even been to that stage where you question life and everything there is to it
  
  
  It's not worth the stress and i have to keep reminding myself
  Walking on egg shells can only take you so far till it's tag n your out
  
  I dont know where or how i'll be like tommorow
  I dont have to keep planning everything in my life cos it'll never be perfect
  Taking each day at a time and stopping to rest whenever i get weary is what i shall be doing
  
  
  In a world full of lotsa plastics and metal,i shall try to keep it real,be true,be nice,be kind,be loving,be appreciative of what i do or dont get,just live life at it's simplest and purest form
  It's not always about what you get,but sometimes what you give could be more important if it changes someones life positively

• I amaze myself with the kinda emotions ...

  Posted: June 6, 2009, 7:48 pm

  I amaze myself with the kinda emotions i can go through in a single day
  Maybe it's finally come with age
  Am glad that am slowly starting to accept certain things i cant change
  It's good to keep hope that maybe someday they might get resolved
  But it's also important to start facing the reality no matter how painfull it might be
  For now i just want to work with what i have,what i can get and make the best of it

• Just one wish

  Posted: June 6, 2009, 10:32 am

  Did i ever have to pay for anothers actions
  What did i ever do to deserve this kinda pain
  Why be so cold,when am not the one you should be angry at
  Would it be so hard to see me as an individual,the person I am,rather than judge me based on history
  Alot of what i do no longer makes sense cos i ran with what i thought was a good and solid thing
  Changed all of my life plans realligning them with what i thought would be my final prize
  And now all that's left is just a mess of plans leading to nowhere

• Thank you :)

  Posted: June 3, 2009, 5:13 pm

  Every once in a while you meet someone who makes you smile
  Makes you happy
  And without so much as trying
  They remind you to live life as it comes
  
  You only get one shot at life
  Loosen the training wheels and enjoy the ride
  Throw caution to the wind
  Take risks
  Do whatever it is that makes you happy
  
  
  
  >It could be hate at first sight but you never know what tommorow brings around

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