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• So far...

  Posted: January 31, 2010, 4:25 pm by kahawaMoto

  I've been meaning to write this post for ages.
  First, i'm going through an early adulthood life crisis. I think. I don't know, i forget the early adulthood development module. SP107 i think. First Year stuff. Anywho, seriously considering putting down the bottle. Atleast/for a month or two. I think sober is a better look for me :) we'll see how that goes.
  
  Me and dude from the last post. We're ummm going out/ dating??? I don't know what people call it these days, but yeah. I'm still tryna wrap my head around it. It's cool. He makes me laugh, we've been really good friends for the longest time. Plus he thinks i'm awesome *score* ! :)
  
  The new arrivals (freshmen) are particularly appaling this year. They're more than last year's batch. Atleast walking around campus will be a pleasant activity :) *giggle* young, cute, eager things! I love being in third year!!! Classes start tomorrow.
  
  My new flat. IS A COMPLETE MESS RIGHT NOW, but it's perfect, location, i don't know my neighbours so there's no obligation... The Landlord stays on the property so it's pretty safe too. Hopefully no disappearing laptops this year.
  
  Yesterday, i was kinda having a shit day. ALCOHOL IS A DEPRESSANT and just thought about stuff. I try to just chill without head phones and listen to my thoughts. I wrote a letter to my 25 year old self. I also wrote one to my 16 year old self and i wish i could go back and give that to me. Things would be so different. That's why i wrote one to the future me as well...
  
  I'm currently reading this book called 'hot and heavy, finding your soul through food and sex' by a Judy Hollis. I haven't got far but it's a pretty good read.
  
  Hope you've all had a productive first month of the year.
  Peace and Love.

• stupid sex game + lunch in burundi

  Posted: January 12, 2010, 11:56 am by kahawaMoto

  i went out with the girls and boys on friday night. got back home on sunday afternoon. my inner thighs are still hurting. the soreness is almost completely gone though.
  yup. i got me some good good.
  this celibacy thing is hard. decided to un-celibate for a weekend. don't worry, it wasn't some random dude, and it was AMAZING!!! so amazing. so FUCKING amazing!!!
  i didn't think it was possible to... i can't diverge any more details without this coming of as some erotica website. but hot damn! it was just so... he knew everywhere to... it's like he had a manual. and a couple of red bulls.
  
  i'm good for another month or two.
  
  yesterday i went for lunch in Burundi. yes, Burundi the country, and i was back home by 4pm. that was pretty cool. they talk funny. the Burundians i mean. but don't all countries???
  oh, the pics, that's the international airport in Bujumbura, Burundi. it's pretty tiny, and needs a coat of paint or two, but i think it's got character.
  
  have a lovely rest of the week peoples!
  
  blogger was taking really long to upload the pics so i'll do that some other time.
  
  peace and love!

• random happy thoughts post!!!

  Posted: January 8, 2010, 11:05 am by kahawaMoto

  
  
  
  life is good!
  life is great!
  life is unbelievable!
  
  that's off some old rock track right? rock is not really my strong point. :)
  
  i was woken up at 8 this morning, after finally falling asleep two hours before that to iron my mom's dress and pour her a glass of juice. why couldn't i fall asleep before 6am, i was spooked out by this movie paranormal activity that me and the people watched the day before yesterday.
  
  i have less that two weeks before i'm back in port elizabeth. can't wait to start and finish m final year!
  tonight, is girls night out! heels, dresses, make up, the works. fun times ahead!!!
  
  i am in an awesome mood! figured i'd spread the new year cheer!
  
  ps, the pic would be drunken me and cousin at a bar in Uganda. that's where we spent our xmas. fun times!

• 2010

  Posted: January 3, 2010, 12:40 am by kahawaMoto

  
  
  i remember just wanting to fast forward to a new year a couple of months ago. either that or starting the year over. getting the a second chance at first impressions. not getting drunk that one time, or talking shit that other time... or... giving that one dude from that one party more incentive to ask for my number, or switching offmy phone of instead of sending that drunk text, or not having that last drink that lead to that one night stand.
  
  i'm not going to whine and moan about the year that was. i know i pissed some people off. myself included. i've made my apologies and it's time to move on. with school, with my non-existent love life (watch this space though!) i'll make an effort, with new friendships, with REAL friends, with family, with myself, with self love... my hips, my thighs, my lips, my eyes -India Arie.
  i'll still moan about bad hair days from time to time though.
  
  becoming the person i would want to attract.
  becoming the person i would want to be-friend
  
  realizing that he is not the only one out there for me.
  
  lemmi stop beating about the bush. this post was supposed to be about failure to achieve intimacy. it's causes and effects. i just can't remember shit from my classes and all my text books and notes are back in south africa.
  
  you know how your keys are always in the last place you look? and how some people say, you have to let love find you, or wait for happiness to pursue you?
  i don't know how i can consciously stop thinking about it and let it (him) find me. i can't tell myself to stop thinking about it because that is still thinking about it.
  hopefully i will be buried in school work, school work, my taebo and yoga dvd's, my poetry, hopefully church every sunday, and other artsy gigs, and checking out hip hop lyrics on the internet... (see, i managed to distract myself for a second there) and remove it (love) and him (the one i haven't met, or looked at in that way)from my mind.
  
  listening to Jill Scott doesn't help.
  
  a friend of mine just got engaged. i remember giving her relationship advice some years back. funny how things work out. i can't help thinking that maybe i took a wrong turn somewhere... either that or there's something off putting about me, the person i've come to be...?
  
  i'm rambling now.
  
  have an awesome year my good people.
  
  peace and love.

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