make mine a double espresso...
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Slick sexy shiny machine... Ex boyfriend... Contracts with the devil(???)...
Posted: September 28, 2009, 9:13 pm by kahawaMoto
I got a new laptop. a week ago yesterday, my mom sent her friend who was coming to P.E to bring it with her. It's a hp compaq, it's super cool. I'm not big on gadgets, but i know a sexy computer when i see one. I'm now trying to rebuild my music collection. I had over 40GB of music, i'm only up to about 5GB now, but i'll do it! I'll get all my stuff back. I'm really happy.
MY MOM IS AWESOME!!!
I turn 21 in less than a month. I'm not excited. Stuff i set out to do before then, i haven't accomplished, but i'm young, There's still time right?
Ok, i lie, i am kinda excited. I plan to have a SUPER PHUN THYME!!!
In less than a month, it'll also be 3 years sincce me and my ex (the significant one) broke up. We've been talking... Kinda alot. We recenlty staryed being civil to each other so we're trying the 'friends' thing.
He told me he still loves me.
I wanna shoot myself in the foot.
Why?
I told him i still loved him back.
He has a girlfriend. They've been together for a while.
He manages to confuse me everytime!
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
Some time last year i wrote a poem called 'two freakin years' basically about how i couldn't believe it took me TWO YEARS to get over him.
I haven't told my friends what's going on. Some of them read this blog. I can already see their disapproving faces and pityful glances.
So yeah. I don't know what to do about that.
F*ck me sideways!!! I'm so mad at myself.
My consolation...
MY NEW LAPTOP IS AWESOME!!!
Thanks momsie!!!!!
Ps, there's talk going round about Jay-Z, Kanye, Beyonce, Rihanna, and recently Taylor swift anong others are member's of the illuminati church, that or free masons, i don't know the difference. There's links i've been told to go check out.
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my girl NDUTS.
Posted: September 11, 2009, 2:43 pm by kahawaMoto
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FW:45 lessons life taught me.
Posted: September 10, 2009, 8:08 pm by kahawaMoto
me and some friends were on campus at some ungodly hour last night, actually it was more like this morning and she sent me this email, i thought i'll share it with my good people!
thanks G! :)
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now.. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
26. Always choose life.
27. Forgive everyone everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business..
29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32. Believe in miracles.
33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36. Your children get only one childhood.
37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41. The best is yet to come.
42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43. Yield.
44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
the highlighted ones are the ones that i most relate to of course! feel free to copy-paste and sambaza! -
PITY PARTY = OVER!!!!!
Posted: September 9, 2009, 5:27 pm by kahawaMoto
I am sooooo done with the negativity! (i don't know how long this dosage of optimism will last, but i'm gonna ride it!)
First i'm gonna get my ass out of bed and go to school... I've been meaning to go for a whilest! i need to break my sleeping cycle. Falling asleep at 5am and waking up at 1pm isn't to good for my productivity. It sucks!!!
I have a test friday, and another assignment due so i have to work on those. Not to mention the number of lectures i haven't attended this semester. Thanks Jesus they put our notes on the net. Otherwise...!
I can't clearly remember how much mis-performing i did at the sexy party (think college kids partying moulin rouge style) last weekend, besides random dude i made out with at the balcony -so not worth mentioning btw. so i'm sure i'll be good going to school.
FYI, the international community is tiny, so everyone is always in everyone's business.
Everyone have an awesome remainder of the week! Keep your heads up. No matter what you're going through, someone out there has it worse... Let's be thankful, let's not be so ungreatful all the gaddam time!!!
So... The lady who cleans the house is directly outside my door, our floors are wooden so it's the full ''boom boom boom!'' and, she's listening to some vernacular radio station. I'd be fine if it was kikuyu or luo, but xhosa just gets annoying at some point. So much for my five minute snooze!
Love ya'll like a fat kid love cake!
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erase and rewind...
Posted: September 7, 2009, 12:08 am by kahawaMoto
I went to the beach over the weekend. It was awesome. The water was super cold and so clear, the sun was out, me and my two girlfriends. Fun times. :)
I went swimming today as well. The campus across the road has a pool and i needed to do some thinking. Something about swimming... my brain is too occupied doing the same robotic movements, so i can listen to what is beyond my brain.
I was reading this book. Self help books are not my thing, i only finished the first chapter. But the high light of that was YOU ARE NOT YOUR MIND. It's an interesting philisophy. There's more to you, than your mind. You know how sometime's you think ''i'm so mad at myself'' yeah, you're mind can be mad at you. Something like that.
Back to the pool, i was swimming, trying to occupy my brain, to listen to my actual 'self'... Alot came to me. First, i wish i could write a letter to my past self. Where i am now and what i would have accomplished by now... Two different things. I know i'm not trying hard enough. I thought it was depression at first, now i'm thinking i'm just straight up lazy.
My self esteem is an oximoron. I know i'm cool, i'm okay looking, i'd be super hot things if i lost a couple of pounds, but yeah. That's a big issue, i won't go more into it. Sometimes i think i'm awesome. But sub consciously i think i feel like i need validation from men. I've been single for almost three years, sex, on the other hand... I have been with more men/boys than i'm proud of. Mostly one night stands. Ummm... I don't know why i keep,
Lemmi pause for a second. ya'll might be thinking they're like 37 dudes, the figure isn't that high. So yeah, lower your eyebrows a little.
So back to that, i don't know why i keep doing some things. Ummm... That i wake up at hit my self in the head over.
If i could, i would erase and rewind. Re do the last three years of my life again. Instead of being stuck with attempted damage control. -
My THAT...
Posted: September 5, 2009, 6:13 am by kahawaMoto
I dream about you...
Everytime i touch myself, i think about you...
Your dark skin, your choleric nature...
I want you soooo bad...
From the l-word, i know you have a man, but i know i want you more than he does...
Feeling on your booty, in the toilet, at that club...
Fuck... You are so sexxxxy
I get it if your man hates me. I don't care... I WANT YOU!!!
YOU ARE THE DEFINITON OF SEX ON FIRE!!!
You know, coz i told you this before...
I just wanna hold you, and touch you, and squeeze on hour booty.
I WAS STRAIGHT BEFORE I MET YOU.
This ain't a fad or a missioN statement.
I want you... Now and forever.
Everything about you is sooooo sexy! -
dear diary...
Posted: September 2, 2009, 1:37 am by kahawaMoto
There's stuff on my mind. I'm doing this from my phone so i'll just write the main points. There's no point to this note. It's just random stuff.
-i watched 'my sister's keeper' today. i cried like a bitch in the cinema. It's such a saaaad movie.
-i'm so done sleeping with guys who have girls. I know, i'm the bitch, the homewrecker whatever... They're not many. just more than one. Okay, more than two... Not that i got emotionally attached or whatever, okay, only with one but he was mine to begin with. I just want someone who is mine.
-me and ad are finally gonna check out the gym on the campus across the street tomorrow!
-i wrote this list of things i don't like about myself. I walk around with it in my wallet. I think it helps. I'm slowly improving. I think.
-i can't belive dude and i started talking dirty again! I bury that shit deep and it still finds me!!! Hahahahahahaha... Steamiest conversations i've had in a long time! Fact that he has a girl, kinda bums me out. (ref: point number 2)
but it's never that serious. Not any more.
-i now blush everytime i think about her. It's so ridiculous!
-i can't wait to take my braids out.
-if i'm still single by the end of this year... I don't even know...
-school. I'm majoring in something that may have me living out of a cardboard box. But it's my passion. I hope i never want to kick my self in the ass for turning down law school.
Blah blah blah
Fish cakes
Alas a fish cake.
Yet more fish cakes
Guess what ... yeah ... fish cakes.
The end of the fish cakes
