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• Another fashion rant

  Posted: July 22, 2010, 5:34 pm by cdohnio

  Okay it's been a while that I've done a post on fashion so today I'm taking the time out of very empty schedule to bless you all with my knowledge. Before we go on, I have no idea why my fashion posts never get any comments even though I'm usually telling you guys the truth as I see it. And I'm always right.:) So know on to the rant.
  
  

  POINTLESS

  Big ass handbags. Yes I've talked about them before and I'm going to do so again. I don't really like them. I don't see the point of someone carrying around a handbag bigger than my bagpack. What is y'all carry in there? As in when I leave the house all I have on me is a wallet and my phone but y'all chuck with a massive hand bag filled with nothing and that time I ask you whether you sleep over somewhere(or planning to be chips'd, apparently they're also called chip funga bags. You might wanna read @savvykenya's post for an explanation) and you say no. SO WHAT THE FUCK YOU NEED A BAG THAT BIG FOR!!
  
  

  UGLIEST shoes ever

  Doll shoes of the plastic variaty. I think they're called sandaks. Okay can anyone honestly tell me if there's an uglier pair of shoes you could wear? As in damn, these shoes go past the blandness of normal doll shoes and take it to another level I doubt any pair other of shoes will ever, in the history of mankind, surpass. as in apart for being generally yawn, they do nothing for your feet (fashion-wise that is). Infact I'll go on to say they positively make your feet look ugly. Some of y'all have ugly feet or rather these shoes make them seem so. I have several reason I hate these shoes but I won't go into them. Just DON'T WEAR THESE SHOES, THEY'RE UGLY!! Wear sandals or slipper if you want to wear comfortable shoes. But in fairness you can go read @Kawiria's defense of these lame ass shoes here.
  
  

  DO NOT carry these in public

  Finally the big one, something that has been bothering me for the better part of this year. Coloured plastic water bottles. Many months ago I was walking through town and noticed this chic walking around with one of these bottles in her hands. I saw also that she had a big ass handbag on the other side and I thought isn't that stupid? Why not put it in the big ass handbag? To make it worse she was carrying it, the water bottle in such a way to show it in prominence like she was showing it off. Cool I let it good as her own stupidity or vanity or what ever. Fast forward to three weeks later and everyone was doing the same thing. Come on why would anyway want to floss something so tacky and cheap? Swinging them around as if to announce to the whole world look I'm healthy I drink water! And it's in such a pretty bottle! Nkt! Idiots, the bloody bottle cost only 300 bob! Stop it! I swear if any of you come to meet me swinging of of these I'll ripped into you so bad you'll question your fashion sense for the rest of your life. Really I DARE YOU! Put it in your big ass handbag, let it have some use and spare me the agony.
  
  Anyway after all that I couldn't just leave you without what I think you should be wearing right? It wouldn't be fair. So here they are: 1. Stockings; these are for me one of the sexiest things you could wear. 2. Platform shoes; I have no idea why these are taking so long to catch on. 3. Three quarter shorts; these are just awesome and edgy. 4. Dresses, the flowing out kind; I don't see many of these around sure way to stand out out and still remain classy.
  
  

  Doesn't this look lovely?

  
  I'm sorry male readers but I have nothing to tell you this time but feel free to suggest to these tips and rants to your wifes(?), girlfriends and sisters, it'll do them a world of good. Anyway I'm done for today, peace!!
  
  
  (Photo credits google images and @Kawiria's blog. Oh and I couldn't spell check it for some reason, sorry:()

• My depression

  Posted: July 20, 2010, 1:16 am by cdohnio

  There's something horribly wrong with me, I've not been feeling good at all emotionally and I'm not sure what it is. For the past one week or so I've been having really weird mood swings. And it's gotten so bad I actually slapped my sis today morning. Yes, she was being unusually unreasonable but still thinking back at it, there where better ways to deal with the situation. Though this isn't exactly the first time I've felt like this this particular bout feels particularly worse.
  
  The last few days I've been have serious variations of my mood. I could start out the day in rather high spirits but at the slightest thing my mood would immediately plunge to severe lows. Sometimes it would be nothing at all just out of no where  I'd just feel down.
  
  But today morning my baby sis was being unreasonable when preparing to go to school; crying and shouting and refusing to dress. I was still asleep but I woke up and told her to behave when she didn't I slapped her once rather hard into submission. She cried but still got dressed with out further hustle. But I was shocked at myself I could've, should've handled it differently.
  
  I'm not sure what's wrong but I think I might be suffering from clinical depression or bipolarism. I don't feel like going into a description of what those might be so I'll leave you to google them. I actually stumbled upon the terms thanks to @sgyreju.(I've learnt a lot from/because of her)
  
  My mum, who of course doesn't know the full extent of this "depression" I told her about because she isn't staying with me told me I should go see a psychologist, or is it psychiatrist or counsellor, at the hospital near my place. She like the only person who knows me better than me.:) & :( Corny, cliché but so very true. The hospital would do the thing free but I've been avoiding it for the last so many months and I'm not so sure why. Maybe I don't want to talk to strangers about what I'm feeling, just pure laziness or I don't want to go alone.
  
  Anyway I'm still haven't decided if I'm going but if this thing, this feeling goes on any longer I'm going to have go give it a try. I really don't like feeling like this and if it's going to be affect my baby sis I'll need to do something soon. I'm sorry for the weird posts, it's just the way I feel and I want to be honest with you guys. I'm not going to tweet out this post like I usually would and I'm turning off the comments; I don't really want to hear what you have to say. Peace.

• Vote for me!

  Posted: July 15, 2010, 4:17 pm by cdohnio

  @eGichomo recently launched his Kenya Blog Contest asking people to vote for their favourite Kenyan blog. Voting is currently on going and as of the time of writing this post this blog was leading with 33 votes. Thanks guys! However polls will close on 30th of this month after which the winner will be announced. There are three categories:
  Art Award: Recognition and appreciation of poetry. Creativity, choice of words, originality and show of talent.
  Beauty Award: Best layout, design, cool features, attractiveness and finest integration of themes and magnificence.
  Action Award: Pursuit of ingenuity. Most interactive and frequent in content update.
  
  
  We're only under the Action Award category(I don't know why I'm not in the beauty award. I really worked hard on the design and layout of this blog*sulking*) So this is an appeal, an appeal for you to vote for me! Please? I like winning, and I'm sure with your help I can do it! You can vote by clicking on the image now competing for attention with the blog title at top of this page, the vote for me image above or just clicking here. Also be sure to vote for people in the other categories, but only after you've voted for me:). If you know how to rig do so, after all this is Kenya:-D (I just couldn't resist) 30th is a long way away let's hope we still winning then. Here's to me winning. Peace!!
  (Image credit: Google Images)

• Drug Addiction

  Posted: July 14, 2010, 3:01 pm by cdohnio

  Image via WikipediaToday I'm in a weird mood and as always when that happens I do an unusual post. I've been thinking about addiction a lot recently. I'll let you know why in a moment. First definition:
  Drug addiction is a state of periodic or chronic intoxication produced by the repeated consumption of a drug (natural or synthetic). Its characteristics include: (i) an overpowering desire or need (compulsion) to continue taking the drug and to obtain it by any means; (ii) a tendency to increase the dose; (iii) a psychic (psychological) and generally a physical dependence on the effects of the drug; and (iv) detrimental effects on the individual and on society. (Wikipedia)
  
  
  Recently, I was very sick with the flu on some very powerful meds which would cause me to fall asleep within 10 minutes. Yeah, powerful stuff. After a few days on them, it was probably 4 days, I became quite used to to the feeling it gave me when I took it: it was like a comfortable sleepy feeling, it made me feel content and sent me into a rather restful dreamless sleep. I actually began to look forward to taking my meds at the end of the day. When my dose was finally over I actually wanted to continue taking them.:) 
  
  But  the real shocker for me came when something pissed me off one day at home and I became rather depressed because of it. I had finished my dose of cough syrup but some of the medicine still remained. I walked into my room thinking how the buzz the medicine gave me would be perfect right now. I looked at the bottle, and it hit me that that was probably the way most drug addictions began wanting to go back to a time when you felt a certain way under its influence. Or maybe just to escape what you are feeling at that particular moment.
  
  
  Until then I had found drug addiction something mildly interesting or rather amusing. I had never given it much thought but I thought only a fool would allow something that destructive to get control of him but now I'm not so sure. I think I'm only now beginning to understand why drug addictions start. Of course there's always those influenced by peer pressure but others may just be doing it to escape their reality, their feelings, trying to get to a place where they're comfortable.
  
  
  Even as I realised all this I still consider taking a dose of the medicine. The buzz was calling and I longer for the feeling it could give. I picked up the bottle stared at it for a few minutes, realised how stupid it would be to do it. I put down the bottle and laughed aloud at my thoughts. But later I noticed I still carve it a little bit, other time I just felt like have a drink and realised that this might be more serious than I thought. And I began to ponder it and came up with the thoughts I shared with you already.
  
  
  While coming up with this post and reading wikipedia for minor research I saw a description that best describes what I felt and what it could have become:
  Drug habituation (habit) is a condition resulting from the repeated consumption of a drug. Its characteristics include (i) a desire (but not a compulsion) to continue taking the drug for the sense of improved well-being which it engenders; (ii) little or no tendency to increase the dose; (iii) some degree of psychic dependence on the effect of the drug, but absence of physical dependence and hence of an abstinence syndrome [withdrawal], and (iv) detrimental effects, if any, primarily on the individual.(Wikipedia) 
  ALSO
  Psychic dependence is defined as a state in which "there is a feeling of satisfaction and psychic drive that requires periodic or continuous administration of the drug to produce pleasure or to avoid discomfort.(Wikipedia)
  
  
  Anyway don't freak out...too much. I just wanted to share this with you to see what you think. Have you really thought about addiction and how it starts? Ever fought some form of it? Or do you know of anyway who has? Let me know what you're thinking in the comments. And remember those in society suffering from drug and substance addiction, pray for them. Peace!

• Drop the world...

  Posted: July 9, 2010, 7:47 pm by cdohnio

  Lil' Wayne via last.fmI've got ice my veins
  Blood in my eyes
  Hate in my heart
  Love on mind
  I've seen nights full of pain
  Days are the same
  You keep the sunshine
  Save me the rain
  I search but never find
  Hurt but never cry
  I work and forever try
  But I'm cursed so never mind
  And its worse but better times seem further and beyond
  The top gets higher the more I climb
  The spot gets smaller and I get bigger
  Trying to get in where I fit in no room for a nigga
  But soon for a nigga it'll be on mother fucker
  Coz all this bullshit makes me strong mother fucker
  
  These are the lyrics constituiting the first verse of Lil' Wayne's song Drop the World ft Eminem. Lil Wayne is one of my favourite artists and Eminem is my favourite artist. I like this particular song because I feel it describes me perfectly past, present and hopefully future.
  
  So what do I mean by this let me give you an example:
  
  Hate in my heart
  Love on mynd
  For real I have hate in my heart for my dad, step mum and life. I tired of all their bullshit. I think its a big part of me now. There was a time it actually consumed me. It made my think dark murderous thoughts. It made me think of slow painful revenge. Of power and using it to punish people. Don't worry its mostly gone now!:)
  
  I think about love alot. A while back I could feel it all around me, or atleast I believved I did. I felt it from my family, friends and even people I met. These days I don't feel it as much. Only the really "strong" one, you know the type that come from direct family - brother, sisters, mother and one of my grandmas. From anyone else I don't feel it anymore. Don't get me wrong, I know its there I just don't feel it anymore. Anyway I find it ironic that the love is in my mind not my heart.
  
  The rest of the lyrics also apply to me in other ways but I just wanted to talk about those two lines. Yes I feel broken. So what? Don't worry too much. Anyways as always peace!!!
  
  (Bloody claim token: SRCVE9X49GNE don't pay much attention to it)
  

• Dear cdohnio... (letter to my 13 year old self)

  Posted: July 7, 2010, 6:16 pm by cdohnio

  Yesterday @Chiira tagged me in one of his posts, "To thirteen year old me", and that tasked me to write a letter to the thirteen year old me. Wow, 13 years old, that was a good year. It was a handful of years back. Hmmm...so what would I say to myself?
  
  Hey young padawan!
  
  How you doing? Yeah, I know it's a little weird to be reading a letter from yourself but think of this: I know what's going to happen to you and how you can avoid it;)
  This year you joined form 1, good for you! You did well in your exams! You only failed Kiswahili, and yes I know you expected that but if you plan to do any better KSCE get your shit together! Don’t worry you that didn't get the highest in maths, you only missed it by two, you're still a genius and in the coming years you'll prove it severally.
  It’s unfortunate I'm the one to tell you this but you are currently in the eye of the storm, everything seems so calm right now but the force of it is still coming. What I’m talking about? Well for starts you go to a crappy boarding school! Yeah, you don’t think it happens but it does. But that isn’t the worst; your parents will get divorced and that comes with it own problems but as always you’ll deal with the best you can. So why am I tell you this? Apart from preparing you for what’s to come, I need you to try enjoy the coming years as much as possible you’ll thank yourself later!
  Yeah still on enjoyment can you go out and vybe the ladies! Even when you change schools (You took a year’s break, what the hell?) I know you’ve got game!(I mean you’re me, how can you not?) And by that I mean stop with the charming of all girls and get a bloody girlfriend!!! How can I be my age and not have been in a relationship yet? Dude!!! Come on! So how about instead of spreading the love you focus on one?
  Probably the last thing, you and Debbie are getting really close, right? If not you will! Dude that chick is HOT!!!!(Even here in my time) Can you get with her already? She likes you, you know it and you don’t do shit?!?! What the fuck?? I know you’re telling yourself that your bidding your time but you lost her because of it! GROW SOME BALLS AND TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL! Do it today! Or rather as soon as you start getting really close! Because if you don’t she’ll taunt you every week with her beauty.
  Don’t worry about it too much though because if you fail for some unknown reason –I can’t see why though, you’re me, we don’t fail…much- you’ll discover something about her that will effectively put you off her for good! Blame Vic, he put thoughts in your head that just changed your perspective on her. Idiot!!
  I know I said last thing way back but you’ll soon realize when you actually sit down to write in the future you just don’t know where to stop. I remember I wrote (you haven’t done it yet, though) a seven paged letter to some one! You just went on and on! Good lord I shudder looking back at that because it was sent to someone who didn’t appreciate that you taken time to write to her.
  You and Vic are going to have plenty of fun times in the years coming, charming girls, dreaming of the future, rumour starting, fighting and dissing people almost to tears! Cherish those times because you’ll lose him sooner than you know. I missing him right nowL. Don’t worry he didn’t die so don’t start flipping!
  Anyway I should stop now, I have a lot to say you but I don’t really have time or the words to so this is the end. Remember: Do Debbie, have as much fun as possible, keep taking risks and continue to laugh at yourself because it’s the only way you’ll get through what’s coming. You’re awesome!
  Cheers, (Would’ve used love but we both know how much we love ourselves)
  
  
  
  
  
  P.S: You know you started a blog? Yeah, it’s awesome, so if you could get a head start on it that would be super!P.S.2: Get started on the extra curricular activities now because the time you’ve planned for them gets disrupted by boarding! Yeah, it sucks ass!P.S.3: Some idiots in your class in the beginning of the year some idiots will laugh at you saying they’re cleverer than you for getting higher K.C.P.E scores but you’ll silence them with the first exam and your crappy Kiswahili scores(really you should work on this) 
  
  
  Continuing in the tradition I here by tag : @Sgyreju of Rainbow Amoeba's Petri Dish , nobodyouknow of Everything About Nothing and finally @deadly_halo of Life within my Halo. Mad shout out to @chiira for tagging this young one in his post! Got something you wanna say? Do it in the comments. Peace!!

• Looks are deceiving (Random Acts of Kindness pt2)

  Posted: July 6, 2010, 5:16 pm by cdohnio

  This is the follow up post on Random Acts of Kindness in which I promised to say something more about this incident:
  Once I was walking down the steps of the brigde at Posta City Square when this old lady, some way a head of me, dropped her bag and it rolled down the steps. I watched expecting someone to give her a hand and pick it up for her but no one did. I waited for a bit but nothing. I had to get ahead of her and picked it up for her. She was already carrying a lot and if she had bent to pick up that bag she might have dropped a lot more.
  
  So a few days after this happened I happened to catch a conversation on radio about how women dress and whether that should be the thing that attracts people most to a girl. Whether a girl should judged on what she's wearing. One person said that he doesn't care what's on the outside only the inside. And I thought what bullshit! Let me explain.
  
  I'm a looker. What does that mean? It means that while I'm walking on the street I'm constantly letting my eyes wander (not that way, keep you thoughts clean) looking at everyone who I pass on the street. I do this for fun and to appreciate the beauty thats around me, there's a lot to be seen btw, and on the rare times I see a well dressed mamasita (most girls dress well but I'm talking of stunning here) I notice that I immediately get assumptions about her, where she stays, her voice and what it'd be like to know her.
  
  My point being is that we always form opinions based first on what we see so to say that you only judge someone based on what's inside is just bullshit to me.
  
  Anyway back to this lady and her fallen bag. I picked it up for her and as I handed it back to her I noticed that she was dressed rather shabbily and her odd assortment of bags she was carrying were rather dirty. I didn't think much about it until I saw her the next day sitted some place on the bridge, begging. That's when it hit me thats why no one helped her because she was a begger and shabbily dressed. I was disgusted at Kenyans (at least the ones on the bridge that day) These are the same people who will tell you that "I don't look on the outside what's inside is what matters" BULLSHIT!!!
  
  Maybe I'm assuming wrong, perhaps there were other reasons that people just passed the lady but I can't find a valid one for not taking 5 BLOODY SECONDS to pick up her fucking bag and give it back to her! NKT!! I'm even getting angry writing this so I'm going to stop. Remember to always take time to help someone! Comments always welcome. Peace
  
  (Image credit: Google images)

• Random Acts of Kindness

  Posted: July 5, 2010, 2:38 pm by cdohnio

  Today's post is a simple one. As the title suggests its all about acts of kindness that I've seen and or done in this great nation of ours, Kenya. I've had the opportunity to interact with several people in my still young life and I hope to interact with several more. One thing I've realised is that the way we treat the people can and probably will affect us and the person for some time to come.
  
  While this post is about kindness, I feel it would be unfair not to include this; the way one person in an institution treats a person may determine how someone feels about it for the rest of their lives. I'll forever take this to heart as I go through life and when I start my own company.
  
  Anyway onto the random acts of kindness:
  
  I'm travelling on a KBS with my boy N, randomly the conductor came and started talking to us, then he let me play with his ticket thing. He was cool, funny and probably high but I'll always remember him when ever I choose to get on to a KBS rather than a Citi Hoppa (which has horrible customer service)
  
  Once I was walking down the steps of the brigde at Posta City Square when this old lady, some way a head of me, dropped her bag and it rolled down the steps. I watched expecting some one to give her a hand and pick it up for her but no one did. I had to get ahead of her and pick it up for her. She was already carrying a lot and if she had bent to pick up that bag she might have dropped a lot more. (More on this on a post tomorrow)
  
  I've been to a few government offices and other private ones this year, JAB, Helb, some public unis and the City Hall just to mention a few. And at most of them I've been treated so well I've been left with a deep respect for the whoole institution. Every time I've been treated with respect I've left the office smiling because it always feels good (and kind of shocking) to be treated so well. Mad props to Maseno Uni, JAB and more recently City Hall. JKUAT has had the most pathetic relations so far.
  
  When was the last time you gave blood? I did recently and was informed that I had helped save three lives. I've donated blood about 4 times so that comes to a total of 12 lives. How many lives can you say you've saved? Donating blood is something that takes only about 30 mins max. And you get a card that shows you did a good deed and that you don't pay for blood if ever (God forbid) you should need it. I have no idea why so few people donate blood.
  
  Anyway this list isn't exhaustive of the acts of kindness that I've witnessed or taken part in but I felt I needed to put this shortlist to remind you, my readers, that we should all be on the look out to take part in these simple acts of kindness. Help that lady find her way somewhere (did that recently) you never know where that might one day take you. Even if it doesn't give you any direct benefit isn't it enough to know that you might have single handedly brightened someone's day?
  
  So have you witnessed or taken part in a random act of kindness? Let me know in the comments and if I get enough of them I'll do a follow up post on this, featuring your acts of kindness! Oh, and don't forget there's a part2 tomorrow! Peace!!

• Thank YOU!

  Posted: July 2, 2010, 6:55 pm by cdohnio

  This is a new month and with it has come several things to be greatful for! Infact it's because of that I'm doing this post. At the time of writing this I'm feeling very content. Its the night after an awesome event, Wamathai's Spoken Word.
  
  @Wamathai was celebrating the birthday of his poetry and short story blog wamathai.com. There was quite a crowd there! We, i.e Kenyan bloggers, are so very proud of him! He has proved that big things can come from blogging.
  
  I meet so many people there and one of my favouite bloggers was performing, @Savvykenya. I was there to support her and I think I over did it with the shouting and the cheering because someone called me a groupie. Hmmm, that wouldn't be far off but I won;t explain that here or now, maybe in a future post. Did I mention she was in a green dress? I didn't?? Well she looked hot!!
  
  But even she had nothing on on someone who I consider to have been the best dressed of the night, @Joliea. She have on a purple shirt with a pair of fitting 3\4 shorts.(these are becaming increasingly fashionable, perhaps another trend?) She looked stunting! There were other ladies there looking good but for me she stood out. It's unfortunate but I didn't get a picture!
  
  Today's blogpost isn't supposed about Spoken Word, Savvy or Joliea. I just thought I'd mention about something interesting I did this week. It's actually somethig I promised I'd do when something happened.
  
  I don't know how many of you have noticed but I recently clocked 200 follows on twitter! Yeah I know its not much of a big deal but hey its 200!! But even more important is something I noticed last night. Take a look to the left of this post. How many followers do you see? Yeah that's right I HAVE 10 REGISTERED FOLLOWERS of my blog!! That's a big milestone for my blog!!
  
  I'm so proud of myself for actually keeping this blog going for all this time! I can't say it's been easy, wondering wether anyone cares about your opinion or writings, or why there no comments or having analytics show you no one been to your blog the last 7 days(it happened once, stats had flatlined at 0. Almost did an post about it blaming the analytics software obviously:-D) but it has certainly been fun and a learning experience!
  
  So this post is here to celebrate my 200th follower on twitter, @mawazo_mengi, and far more importantly my 10th(public) blog follower, Nancie. I know there several of you who haven't registered but follow through my links on twitter and I'm greatful for you all. This post is for you all, to show my appreciation and say thanks for taking your time to read, to comment and to tell me how much you love my writing because for this blog and for a some part of me, you are the most important people in the whole world! Peace.

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