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• The Creative Commons

  Posted: May 28, 2010, 2:08 pm by cdohnio

  
  
  So today I registered for a Creative Commons license here. Its free. I did this on the encouragement of nobodyouknow here. She said that she had found copies of her works on other blogs and they hadn't even bother to attribute it back to her! Imagine! If I had found my creative genius(WHAT? This is my blog so I be concoeted all I want. Hehehehe!!!) somewhere without my permission and no attribute back to me I'd flip!!! So she applied for a Creative Commons license so that atleast she can be attributed to next time.
  
  So after a lot of internal debate - I wasn't sure that I wanted to license my work because it might prevent people from reposting it at all - I decided to get one for my blog. While I haven't done a search for copies of my work anywhere, it's better safe than sorry, right?  But the license, which now resides at the bottom of each post, still allows you to copy my work to your blogs(I encourage it), websites and anywhere else you feel like but makes it a illegal to do so without attributing it to me and this blog.
  
  Anyway at the end of the registration I was given a form to support the organisation by donating what ever I can. Unfortunately I don't have a Visa, or any credit card for that matter, so I couldn't push a few dollars their way. But as I thought of their noble initiative protecting lowly bloggers like myself I decided to support them by doing this post about them(All information here is available on the Creative Commons website)
  
  
  What is CC?Creative Commons is a nonprofit organizationWe work to increase the amount of creativity (cultural, educational, and scientific content) in “the commons” — the body of work that is available to the public for free and legal sharing, use, repurposing, and remixing.CC provides free, easy-to-use legal toolsOur tools give everyone from individual creators to large companies and institutions a simple, standardized way to grant copyright permissions to their creative work. The Creative Commons licenses enable people to easily change their copyright terms from the default of “all rights reserved” to “some rights reserved.”Some Rights ReservedCreative Commons defines the spectrum of possibilities between full copyright and the public domain. From all rights reserved to no rights reserved. Our licenses help you keep your copyright while allowing certain uses of your work — a “some rights reserved” copyright.
  
  
  
  So what are you waiting for? Go check the website out! If you have a blog or work online consider getting it licensed! Its FREE! I'm hoping this post will do in terms of support 'till I can afford to support them monetarily because they do great things. Btw the is this copying people work thing common? Or am I and nobodyouknow just being paranoid? Let me know in the comments! Peace!

• Safaricom is a bully!!!!

  Posted: May 26, 2010, 4:21 pm by cdohnio

  So today Safaricom announced it full year results today. Apparently  Safaricom had turnover up 19.1% to Sh83.96b, subscribers up 18.2% to 15.79m ; dividend up 100% to Sh8b at 20cents a share and a profit of over sh20b. But along with that announcement that the Information PS  Ndemo annouces that the THE KENYA INFORMATION AND COMMUNICATIONS (FAIR COMPETITION AND EQUALITY OF TREATMENT) REGULATIONS, 2010 been suspended to be reviewed! Nkt!!
  
  Now I'm sure that most of you(Kenyans that is) have heard if not read about the aforementioned regulations. They mostly protect the smaller operators from bullying from the dominant player(Safaricom). It mostly(actually only, I think) deals with interconnection rates. So that means when Safaricom decides to raise interconnection rates they have to prove that they're doing it because their costs to do so have gone up. It also states that "A licensee shall maintain accounting separation techniques to be focused on the separation of revenues, costs and capital employed into categories in order to ensure that there is no discrimination between internal and external pricing in all services provided by the licensee."(Taken verbatim from the regulations)
  
  I really don't see that as price control, do you? Even if it is it protects the consumer. And the fact that it's only Safaricom complaining should tell you the other players have no probelm with them. In fact some of them even praised the regulation! So why exactly are they being suspended? After all CCK is  supposed to look at all players as equal but hey Safaricom hates them so lets be their bitch and do exactly what they say!Lets not forget that Safaricom is generally a crappy network with poor service(try call customer care and see when you get connected). I don't even know why Kenyan's seem hooked to that network! Most expensive data, voice and SMS charges in the country. Though I have to admit Safaricom does do innovation very well, M-pesa, 3G and now M-kesho. But I fear that Safaricom is becoming what people "Too big too fail".
  Sp what brought on this short rant? Larry Madowo tweeted that Micheal Joesph(CEO Safcom) had asked him not to call over sh20 billion super-profits! Good Lord! Thats just bullshit! None of their competitor can even claim to make half(more likely quarter) of that profit AND very few companies in the region, East Africa not just Kenya, even come close. Anyway I just had to get that off my chest. I'm not an expert, businessman or even a business student. I'm just someone with an opinion and this platform to express it. What do you think? Comments are welcome. Before I go can someone tell me if I can be sued for this? Peace!

• Am I real open minded?

  Posted: May 24, 2010, 3:55 pm by cdohnio

  I write this assuming what I say won't be judged, much. Most of the people who read this blog of mine are open minded people but sometimes there's a level where that open-minded ends for example while I don't judge homosexuals I can't stand it if two guys made out in front of me. I don't mind a girl and boy did it or even girl and girl but boy and boy gives me a headache and makes me feel like puking!
  
  So I'm left wondering if that makes me homophobic or just gay phobic. Does  it make me a hypocrite for accepting one side of homosexuality and being repulsed by the other? And anyway I find chi cs making out really sexy but if I meet a truly lesbian person would I be as accepting? (up until this point I've only ever met bisexual girls and, I think, one lesbian). Also as a Christian and a person I think homosexuality is wrong but I still accept it and try not to judge. Is that a bad thing? Thinking that its wrong?
  
   Also there's this whole thing of asexuality that I just learnt about the other day. I've always assumed everyone would be able to feel some sort of sexual attraction. I find it strange that someone(well here I mean mostly dudes) can feel nothing(sexually) when confronted with a sexy girl. But then again I can totally accept it(more than homosexuality). And I'm wondering if its because it doesn't really affect me(physiologically) or that I truly accept it because there have been times in my life that I've felt devoid of any sexual feelings.
  
  These are questions that I ask myself all the time when considering sexuality. I think I can sum this up into a single question: Am I really open minded or do I just force myself to accept? Sound off in the comments about what you think, if you have answers to my question(s), whether you ask yourself the same questions or about what you think. I think I'll talk about heterosexuality next. As always, peace!!

• Asexuality (I learn soemthing new very day here)

  Posted: May 21, 2010, 1:44 pm by cdohnio

  When I stared this blog I did it for fun! For the fame. To let the world know what I was thinking. But yesterday I just realised that having this blog has enabled me to learn a lot more about human nature! It's a truly overwhelming feeling to get comments from you, my readers, that force me to think and do research. Thanks to you all I was able to write a post on Homosexuality in pre-colonial Kenya and now again thanks to my last post I've learnt about asexuality. But thats not that brought on this post.
  
  It was this comment by Sgyreju on the post.
  
  "Well, I'm asexual, as I told you on Twitter. Asexual people are not THAT rare. I know rather well a dozen asexual people and have met about forty in all, thanks to online communities and blogs (and I'm only talking about people I've seen in person here). A study suggested that one percent of the population is asexual, so everyone probably knows at least one asexual person (they just may not know them well enough to know that this person is asexual). Every day I see several people joining the asexual communities I'm a member of and writing stuff like "I'm so glad I've found out about asexuality, I always wondered why I was different, it's such a relief to know I'm not alone".
  
  
  The definition of asexuality is "not experiencing sexual attraction" and that fits perfectly what your friend said about not having looked at a woman in a sexual way. Of course, yes, he might be gay too (although those stereotypes of cleanliness really don't matter - I know straight guys who are very neat and gay guys who are real slobs). He only said that he never looked at women in a sexual way; he might have looked at men in a sexual way.
  
  Basically, if you're wondering what it's like to be asexual: apparently you're a straight guy, right? So you've never looked at a guy in a sexual way, you've never looked at a guy and thought he was hot and that you wanted to have sex with him? Well, I've never looked at anyone, guy or girl, and thought that they were hot and that I wanted to have sex with them. I don't even understand how one can feel that way about another person. I know most people do experience sexual attraction, but I just can't imagine what it's like.
  
  I suppose that, as a straight guy, you don't think you're missing anything by not being sexually interested in guys? Well, asexual people generally don't think they're missing anything by not being sexually attracted to anyone. We can't miss something we've never felt. And we are usually really surprised that other people feel that kind of attraction and that it's such a big deal for them.
  
  Here's the FAQ of the Asexual Visibility and Education Network, if you want to know more about asexuality: http://www.asexuality.org/home/general.html. And I'm willing to answer questions too if you have any :-)"
  
  
  So ofcourse me being me, I went to the website. This is what it says(but y'all should go check it out yourself there's a lot more to be seen there, like their personal experiences)
  
  Overview
  An asexual is someone who does not experience sexual attraction. Unlike celibacy, which people choose, asexuality is an intrinsic part of who we are. Asexuality does not make our lives any worse or any better, we just face a different set of challenges than most sexual people. There is considerable diversity among the asexual community; each asexual person experiences things like relationships, attraction, and arousal somewhat differently. Asexuality is just beginning to be the subject of scientific research.
  
  Relationships
  Asexual people have the same emotional needs as anyone else, and like in the sexual community we vary widely in how we fulfill those needs. Some asexual people are happier on their own, others are happiest with a group of close friends. Other asexual people have a desire to form more intimate romantic relationships, and will date and seek long-term partnerships. Asexual people are just as likely to date sexual people as we are to date each other.
  
  Sexual or nonsexual, all relationships are made up of the same basic stuff. Communication, closeness, fun, humor, excitement and trust all happen just as much in sexual relationships as in nonsexual ones. Unlike sexual people, asexual people are given few expectations about the way that our intimate relationships will work. Figuring out how to flirt, to be intimate, or to be monogamous in a nonsexual relationships can be challenging, but free of sexual expectations we can form relationships in ways that are grounded in our individual needs and desires.
  
  Attraction
  Many asexual people experience attraction, but we feel no need to act out that attraction sexually. Instead we feel a desire to get to know someone, to get close to them in whatever way works best for us. Asexual people who experience attraction will often be attracted to a particular gender, and will identify as lesbian, gay, bi, or straight.
  
  Arousal
  For some sexual arousal is a fairly regular occurrence, though it is not associated with a desire to find a sexual partner or partners. Some will occasionally masturbate, but feel no desire for partnered sexuality. Other asexual people experience little or no arousal. Because we don’t care about sex, asexual people generally do not see a lack of sexual arousal as a problem to be corrected, and focus their energy on enjoying other types of arousal and pleasure.
  
  Note: People do not need sexual arousal to be healthy, but in a minority of cases a lack of arousal can be the symptom of a more serious medical condition. If you do not experience sexual arousal or if you suddenly lose interest in sex you should probably check with a doctor just to be safe.
  
  Identity
  Most people on AVEN have been asexual for our entire lives. Just as people will rarely and unexpectedly go from being straight to gay, asexual people will rarely and unexpectedly become sexual or vice versa. Another small minority will think of themselves as asexual for a brief period of time while exploring and questioning their own sexuality.
  
  There is no litmus test to determine if someone is asexual. Asexuality is like any other identity- at its core, it’s just a word that people use to help figure themselves out. If at any point someone finds the word asexual useful to describe themselves, we encourage them to use it for as long as it makes sense to do so.
  
  
  It seems that society is made up of people far more diverse than I had initially thought. We have heterosexuals, homosexuals, transgenders and now asexuals. I think why some people, like me, are just hearing about this is because no one would have a problem with them just because they don't bother us much but I know that we might still ridicule them(I'm still trying to wrap my head round the idea, i can't) for just being who they are! Remember just because someone is different from you doesn't make them wrong, it's our differences that make life interesting and worth living. As Joliea says "Live and let live".  Oh yeah, before I go make sure you have a look at Sgyreju's blog  "Rainbow Amoeba's Petri Dish" for more insight into the day to day life of an asexual. he's friendly so don't be shy and ask him questions. I know I will.
  
  
  
  
  I just realised that I haven't really said much here that's original. Is that plagiarism? Then again would you have ever heard this much about asexuality? Anyway again its still amazing me how much this blog is opening my eyes. Its truly a great learning experience! Comments are always welcome. Btw I don't moderate comments as claimed elsewhere on this blog. What would be the point of enabling anonymous comments then? As always peace!!

• One of my interesting friends...

  Posted: May 18, 2010, 7:48 pm by cdohnio

  I wrote this post immediately after that night described to read it like you were reading it immediately after:
  
  So today, or is it yesterday? Oh yeah, its after 12. I have to right this before I forget it or lose psyke in the morning light. So yesterday I went to my boy's, Jewlz, house for his birthday party. It was cool, actually it was very very cool. Meet a lot of new people, meet some old school buddy's and had lots of fun. No it wasn't as crazy or as wild as the last time I went drinking in Karen but still fun.
  
  So what's today's post about? I've already said that I met some old high school buddies, so this post is about one of them. Lets call him Leo, after what I have to say about him you'll see why I'm not using his real name. He reads my blog, by the way (good stuff, man!!), and already knows that I'm writing this but if he doesn't like it I'ma take it down.
  
  A little background on Leo. We went to the same school 3rd and 4th. He's was always immaculately dressed and behaved. He's clothes were always clean (we had one tap for like 1000 students), well ironed (you could cut your finger on the line on his trousers) and he had the whitest cleanest shirts in the whole school( I mentioned the one tap, right?). Oh and his grades were also really good and the teachers loved him.
  
  Anyway while at the party somehow we began talking about lesbianism and then he goes " I don't like seeing chics make out" and I was in shock!!! WTF?!!! A dude who doesn't like seeing chics make out? Really? Then he goes on to explain how he just doesn't like gay shit. So the ladies at the party (who were also shocked,btw) go on to ask him a series of questions which I'm putting in Q&A style for simplicity's sake:
  Q: So if you walked into a room with two chics making out and they asked you to join, you would?A: Refuse and walk back out the roomQ: Even if the chics were Kim Kardashian (can anyone tell me why this chic is famous?) and [insert hot model chic who's name I can't remember her]
  A: I think Kim is a little too wild(???)Q: Okay then Angelina Jolie?A: NoQ: Okay would you have a one night stand?(I asked this)A: NopeQ: Would you have pre-marital sex within a relationship?A: NoQ: Have you ever been in a relationship?A: NoQ: Ever kissed a girl?
  A: NoQ:So let me ask you this (this was me asking btw): Have you ever looked at a chic in a sexual way?A: NO!!(????????)
  At this point you can imagine how I and everyone else taking part in this conversation was. I was shouting in complete disbelief, incredulity(my voice is hoarse right now, even sexier than usual:), jumping up and down banging the table. The ladies of course began, joking or maybe seriously (I was tipsy), about how he was the man they'd been searching for. Someone called him gay-straight.
  This dude has made a choice of how his lifestyle would be and that's it. But all is not lost, he likes driving cars and playing PS2. And no he is not a kid he's 20 years old. So I ask you my dear readers and followers what do you think? Do you believe what he said? Do you know anyone like this? Let me know in the comments. Oh yeah I know him and believe him, except for the very last question. Oh, I almost forgot, he isn't planning on getting married:). As always peace!!!

• 4 days of a bad mood

  Posted: May 6, 2010, 5:03 pm by cdohnio

  Am not sure how to start this but I realise that by writing this I've already began...Its been four days...four days of a really bad mood. I'm not sure why but of the last four days I've realised that I've been very angry for most of the time lets look at the days one at a time.
  Day 1: My baby sis, J, wakes me up to tell me that she's been left by her school bus so I immediately wake up wondering what could've gone wrong this morning! So I walk out into the sitting room and right there taking care of her stupid kid is H, the stepmother! Stupid woman how does Joyce skip the "adult"(using this extremely loosely) in the house and come wake me up!! NKT!! And she didn't even seem concerned!! so anyway I immediately take J to school but seriously how is it that am the one taking all this responsibility of a parent when there are two adults in the house??? They're just fair weather parents.Dad with his bullshit "bonding" sessions.He's never there when J is crying or sad or angry.He's even walked out once when J was crying for our mum...just walked in saw the tears and walked right back out!
  Day 2:Its Saturday and I get J ready for church and pack her stuff for going to our mum's. Well going to church was cool and went to Oasis for the first time.It a small,intimate church.I liked it a lot. Well I went back to church to find that everyone from class was on their way out! On top of that J was going not going to stay with mum so that means baby-sitting all weekend and apparently she had a function in school the next day... That was so fucked! It meant there was no where I was going this weekend...sigh.And then H wanted me to do the dishes...nktest!!! Kananizoea!
   Day 3: wake up to get J ready for her graduation at school.Its Sunday and its supposed to be my lazy day but for J, anything,I make for her and me breakfast then tell her to go wake up dad to tell him she's ready...he steps out of the room and casually asks if I'm going with her or she's going to be alone!! As in WTF!!!! Is it really my responsibility to be attending J's school functions? Am not her parent!!!! This nigga needs to get serious!! I really want to move back in with my mum where I could be lazy and without (much) responsibility. So there goes my whole Sunday but it was worth it in other ways like getting to hang and talk to my mum and seeing J so happy to be with her friends and playing.This was slightly marred by my nose bleed.
  
  Day 4:Failed to wake up to see that J got a full-ish breakfast so I went back to sleep and woke up a couple of hours later...then when H is leaving she informs me that Dad doesn't want me to take his fan again!! Nktest the way that thing was going to send me back to sleep? What so wrong with me using it when he's not there? He just doesn't like sharing his stuff...well fuck it! He can go fuck it! And then his stupid wife shouts at J? Who gave her that parental right??!! Silly girl! If she does it again she'll be hearing from me! Lets see what tomorrow brings...
  Note: This was written so long ago but I just wanted to share it out with the world. I get so frustrated sometime and so I write things like this when I do, its better than killing my stepmum :) Don't you think? As always peace!!

• Interesting situation leads to troubling questions...

  Posted: May 5, 2010, 2:46 am by cdohnio

  I seem to be on a roll with the blog posts this week. I've been quite encouraged by the comments you leave on the posts and twitter, thanks. Anyway today's post is not the faint hearted and is rather explicit in nature but it's important that I put this down because it got me asking some really really difficult questions. I just hope that I can tell the story well enough so you get what was going on clearly enough.
  
  
  
  So last week on Wednesday I got in touch with one of my friends, lets call him Tee, after a long time (I've been underground I realise) and he said he was getting together with a couple of friends for drinks the next day at his dad's crib. I accepted.
  
  
  
  So the next day I head to Karen. I have to ask how anyone survives there without a car, the mats drop you at a stage then you walk several kilometres before you reach your house. So after that long walk in the sun I arrive to find the idiot hasn't come home but luckily another friend, Lee, had already reached so we waited with him for Tee who appeared with the ladies a few minutes later. Their names are Ray, Sally and Angel.
  
  
  
  I was shocked to see Ray here, that Tee had actually invited her. They'd had a really really bad break up in which Tee had found out that she had been cheating on him. Infact she's the one who initiated the break up but, hey, I'm not one to judge.
  
  
  
  It was lunch time so a bunch of us decided that we'd have lunch while I got reacquainted with Ray -meet her once before, didn't like her- and familiar with Sally and Angel. Sally was particularly good looking with dark skin, which just made her look so exotic.
  
  
  
  We went upstairs when we were done, there was another smaller sitting room up there (houses of the rich). Lee was acting as deejay and immediately got us started on some cool techno. We'd already open the vodka and the girls had mixed theirs with coke, I decided to go with shots. Soon the bottle was halfway and decreasing rapidly, mostly thanks to Sally and me we'd had several shots and were making the others join us. At some point we moved the coffee table so we'd have space to dance.
  
  
  
  I can't remember why or how but something totally cool happened. Angel and Ray started making out! I know if you’re a chic you're either unimpressed or disgusted but a guy can appreciate how sexy this looked. They were on the floor kissing, grinding and touching each other. Me, Tee and Sally took out our phones and began to record the action... At some point Sally decided she wanted in and pushed Ray off and got on top of Angel. Ray took this chance to make out with Tee. At some point I think I told myself that I needed to get some air so I left the house to walk outside. in any case I had the sudden urge to fell grass in between my toes.
  
  When I got back to the house you'll never guess what I saw there... Nothing! Well not exactly LEE was there but who cares about him, right? Where were the honeys and Tee? Well they'd locked themselves in one of the rooms. I was like wtf?? He took all the honey's and left Lee and me outside alone, to do what? Stare at each other? So I banged on the door and told him to chuck now or I'll never forgive him!! He didn't listen. Lee decided he wanted to hear what was going on in the room and killed the music so we could hear better and, OH MY, did we hear...moaning and groaning. I banged on the door and told Tee that it wasn't fair to leave us outside like that.
  
  This time he opened the door and I peeked into the room. One girl, I think it was Ray was topless, bra-less and had her skirt high up her chest, Angel also was topless and bra-less and in her underwear and Sally was just topless but I could see her bra was undone. Tee on the other hand was in his boxers.
  
  So anyway Sally and Angel left the room, I remember that Ray looked as if she was leaving but then she reached the door and locked herself in with Tee. Outside LEE had already put the music back on and was dancing with Angel. Sally was dancing alone so I danced with her. Sally was just in her bra and Angel, who was really high (she's a lightweight) had out on her bra on top of her shirt. At some point LEE and Angel started to make out and some really heavy petting was going on. I remember wandering if I should start making out with Sally at this point but I decided against it. Why? Read the end of this post to find out;) After a while Tee and Ray joined us from the room, I'll leave you to guess what had just happened. Ray didn't seem to be able to handle her alcohol to well and went to one of the bathrooms to puke.
  
  Sally abandoned me and began to drag Tee back into the room, which she promptly locked. Angel and Lee were still doing their thing someplace (I could see them). I've just realised, in writing this, that I seemed to be doing a lot of nothing but watch but I swear I can't remember what it was that I was doing but I know I was doing something because I remember hitting my head on the lower hanging chandelier but not how it happened:) Ray came back and began banging on the door of Tee's room for him and Sally to come out. I began to think she still harboured some feelings for him. She was persistent until they chucked the room. Tee didn't look too pleased.
  
  At some point someone suggested body shots and Tee went down to get salt. I remember now that’s when I hit my head leaning over the railing:) When he came back Sally and Angel had started making out again and Ray went back to the bathroom. Tee, or maybe it was Sally took advantage of Ray's absence and they both disappeared again. I didn't see where they went this time because it was Angel and LEE who were in Tee's room (the door was open). I went in to check on Ray who was still in the bathroom. At some point I think I helped her on to the bed then lay down beside her (it was a big bed). Lee and Angel came back in and Angel, after talking to me for a bit and asking my name, made out with me for a bit then, or I think Lee, decided to stop and they left.
  
  I remained with Ray to keep an eye on her and keep her company. I kept asking her if she was feeling okay and if there was anything I could get her after all I am a gentleman. While I was talking to her she made a move on me, she put her hand down my jeans, and me being me kissed her, cupping her boobs in my hands and caressing them. Then I lifted her shirt and sucked in her boobs for a bit, All this time she's moaning and her hand is still in my jeans rubbing against my cock. One of my hands on her thigh wandered up searching, caressing until I found her pussy, I out in two of my fingers and she moaned louder. Now while this was going on she out of now where begins to ask for Tee, never mind her hand is still down my jeans and she's moaning. So I ask myself what would be the right thing to do here because it's obvious she's enjoying herself. I leave her alone and go look for Tee, who was still missing. When I got back Lee had decided he's moving Ray to somewhere he could watch her. Nkt! Idiot!! Like I'd do anything after I had decided she didn't really want me.
  
  After this I went to the sitting room and blacked out on one of the couches. I was tired and high. Then these idiots woke me up and I had to go puke. SLeeping while you're still high is not the best idea if you're going to woken up at any point. I heard Ray banging at a door and shouting "OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR!!! YOU CAN'T BE FUCKING TEE!!OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR NOW!!! I SWEAR YOU HAD BETTER NOT BE FUCKING IN THERE!" and later screaming "TEE'S MINE!! TEE'S MINE!! TEE'S MINE!!" Hilarious stuff! I was smiling in my sleep! I reminded myself to ask Tee whether he still knew she was still sprung on him.
  
  So those are the adventures of Thursday last week. So let me draw you some key points that got me asking myself difficult questions. First, Tee had sex with at least two of these girls. Now what worries me is that I know his girlfriend and I like her. Usually I'd be the first to defend any of my boys cheating on their girlfriends but this time I was really bothered, why? Is it that I know her? Or that I actually like her? I found myself wondering if he thought or really cared about her. I really thought she'd be the one to temper his appetite.
  
  Second, I kind of cock blocked Tee, that is totally against my nature, beliefs and the bro-code. Why did I do it? I've thought about it and apart from the fact that I was alone with LEE while he had all the mamas and that’s not fair. Its also the fact that always gets the hot babe whenever I'm there. Its pissing and damaging to my self esteem. But I'm coming to accept that's the hazard of hanging out with him. This is impart with a one of my characteristics; that I think I'm the best at everything, that I want the best of everything. This is both a good and bad thing. And I never forget when I don't do as well as I expected and set for myself.
  
  Third, when things were getting hot and heavy with Ray. I actually considered ignoring what she was saying and going with what she was doing. And this by the way is the most important question: When did I become that guy? The guy who takes advantage of girls (this sounds like I mean rape but I don't mean that) She's saying no (or in my case asking for someone else) and I just keep going on because she's also not stopping. Is it okay? When did I get so morally wrong I can be asking it? It scares me and I've been forced to ask myself what my boundaries really are...
  
  Anyway I felt I had to get this out there, perhaps y'all can help me clear my thoughts on the questions I asked particularly the last few. Let me know what you think, feel or whatever in the comments, anything would be cool. This might the beginning of me putting personal stuff on my blog or just a random occurrence I'm not to sure. As always peace!!

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Fish cakes

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