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It's been awhile.. ...
Posted: April 3, 2012, 2:52 am by mwihaki
It's been awhile.. Lot's of things have happened. I have been happy and at times sad but mostly, I have grown. Worked on a commercial from conceptualisation to now post production. It was a learning experience especially since it was my first time. Weird though since I've been in this industry for 11 years! What! That's over a decade and I don't own my home yet... The 16 year old me would be so disappointed in the 33 year old me! Actually maybe not so much... In this to months I have resolved to work on my relationship with a certain amazing Mr.. We can call him savage.. This is quite the task since I've had one foot at the door since we got back together. It's hard, it's amazing, it's painful, it's love. I have also decided to let go of toxic relationships. Why waste time and energy on people who only focus on the negative side of you? New experiences have been many or is it the same experiences but with a different mentality? All in all I'm happy and I foresee a happier me in the future. I want babies.. the god of procreation has camped in my head.. Peace xoxo! -
My new year
Posted: January 30, 2012, 3:22 pm by mwihaki
Jan 27th is my birthday and as such I expect that those who love me would want to spend time with me. This year started off well.. I had a spa treatment that was off the hook and I was ready to then spend time with my boyfriend. Have loads of grateful sex. Go out and party and then have more grateful sex. However he decided I wasn't good enough for him and he wanted to hang out with his friends. Today is Monday that was Friday and I'm still hurting. I love the gifts I just wish he felt inclined to be with me. -
Where is the tequila to go with the fresh batch of lemons?
Posted: November 29, 2011, 5:33 pm by mwihaki
So here I was living a normal life nothing much happening. Living from one deadline to the next, laughter with friends a little sex here and there..(Have I mentioned that lack of sex-on-demand is my biggest pet peeve about being single?) Then wham! A fucker does me in... Shafted me in the ass a good one without lube and now I have to sue! I have never been a combative person. In fact I pride myself with my ability to solve issues. Once in awhile when I feel like it's getting out of hand and pushed to a corner I will explode but it's short and sweet and depending on the results we can go on to work together many years or stay in a happy relationship . But if I feel played I will walk away and that will be the last time I allow myself to be played by the same person. I hate liars and cheats they are the lowest form of life there is somewhere below algae. Lawyering up and it's exhausting... Why can't I just be the happy go lucky creative? Making entertainment while keeping happy in the depression?? 2011 has been one year that I will credit for making me a stronger woman, for showing me that I can overcome everything. I had to nearly lose it all to appreciate it. Now I'm taking nothing granted and I'm NOT allowing to be taken for granted. Don't yet know how 31st Dec is going down but it WILL GO DOWN in style! Hopefully it will be on a beach somewhere! Now I need to get back to my script..... -
Plagiarism
Posted: November 24, 2011, 10:52 pm by mwihaki
I have been PLAGIARIZED. In 2009 my friend and I sat in Java and created a show. We worked tirelessly on it and had 13 episodes all written. We began pitching but we weren't successful in getting money for the show. In 2010 we met with a certain man and pitched the show. Said man loved it and had suggestions on how to make it better. We reworked the show and the said man was positive he would raise money for it. He said he would approach which he did. He now runs a media house and the show is airing in that media house without our knowledge, someone called and congratulated us for having the show on air and that's how I discovered that our show had been plagiarised. The pain is unbelievable. -
Forgiving
Posted: November 21, 2011, 6:52 am by mwihaki
I'm too hard on myself. This has been a weakness of mine for so long. Usually I try not to expect things from people but sometimes it's sorta human nature (weaknesses of the primitive human race. But there are some things I expect for instance treat me as you'd want me to treat you. Well if that's my modus operandi why don't I forgive myself when I make monumental mistakes? Right now I'm hating myself for falling in love with my ex. Seriously the dude is a thirty something year old, irresponsible dude who hits on anything with a pulse. He's jobless/ homeless etc The problem is not even that he's broke it's how badly he treated me when I was almost always good to him. Although at some point I was craving love and I gave in to my ex for the kind of fulfilling wholesome love he gives. So yeah I cheated numerous times with my ex. It's ridiculous how I loved someone who was incapable of giving me the kind of love I wanted and even though I saw it I chose to ignore it and enjoy the moment. Never mind that he spent numerous nights out including three consecutive nights after I came home from surgery! This are some of the reasons I find it hard to forgive myself! How did an awesome woman like myself fall for this person and then stoop to such levels? Really? I mean like fucking seriously! Well that's in the past what irks me now is the SHAME I feel anytime I miss him. Have you ever degraded yourself to a level that you can't even bare to think of? That's how I feel. That's me I VIOLATED MYSELF letting this monster into my life and allowing him to get away with being such a bastard to me. Now I need to FORGIVE ME. My prayer is that I will forgive myself and the lesson learnt is never to make a decision to keep someone when your life is falling apart and also when your lonely don't take on a new lover get a puppy. It will serve your needs better. I make the conscious decision to take the lessons and forgive myself and move on. This isn't my first nor will it be my last mistake. Love and light...xoxoxoxoxo -
4 PLAY
Posted: November 16, 2011, 11:40 pm by mwihaki
So I'm trying something new. Instead of complaining that Nai has no raves I'm throwing a rave that I would like to go to. It's quite the daunting task coz I have no clue how to get people to come and party! This is proving to be truly scary! I find that I question everything I do and it's getting exhausting I should just trust my judgement! Yes, that's what I'll do! How does one throw a rave? Step 1. I need partners. Step 2. Location Wish me luck! -
Sunday
Posted: October 30, 2011, 12:06 am by mwihaki
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I want out. ...
Posted: July 15, 2011, 4:28 am by mwihaki
I want out. i want a man a real man at this point I just want a man a real man not a thirty something teenager.. I want to be happy n believe me when I say my career is coming to fruition but Im sick n in love with a punk who wants n deserves less than me.. I may die at the table.. All my dreams gone... I hate this but some day I will win an oscar perhaps single, aids n children free.. God give me a MAN who is man enough for me n SINGLE. -
I miss
Posted: May 17, 2011, 2:26 pm by mwihaki
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Settling for zero
Posted: May 12, 2011, 7:21 am by mwihaki
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Settling for zero
Posted: May 12, 2011, 7:19 am by mwihaki
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J not the legend
Posted: May 8, 2011, 6:05 pm by mwihaki
It feels like I’m drowning from all the bad choices I’m making. Take J for instance he has lived in my n house for months on end.. I asked for it.. He blatantly disrespects me, sleeps out nights on end ..(this is the saddest part he won’t even respect my intelligence to tell a good lie). I’m becoming those women I feel sad for the ones in retarded sad lonely ...things.. But I can change that and I will change that. I deserve better and will make better choices in the future.. Starting today.
He wanted to spend the afternoon with his friend and he had the bad taste to ask me to go when he didn’t mean it.. I mean is this guy a dick or what.. It’s my bad for taking in a boy and expecting him to play in a man’s league.. My bad I take full responsible for acceptance however he should own up.. (what a joke .. there I go with those expectations again..) Great.. that’s that then.. He’s out and I’m sad.. -
Blah
Posted: May 5, 2011, 5:20 am by mwihaki
Deep sorrow has become a part of my sorrow. It's tedious. I need reprieve. In the mean time a shoulder will do...
There was a time not so long ago a smile was easy to come by.. laughter was a friend of mine. Now not so much. Where and how to find repreive... Never felt so lonely.
I need to surround myself with people who are willing to help. Should be easy... Not so much since asking for help is my weakness... So today I promise myself to talk/let in on my pain the people around me and anyone else able and willing to help atleast once and when I feel the sadness coming I will reach out.. In the meantime I cry.. -
The hills..
Posted: April 30, 2011, 12:37 am by mwihaki
Today a few of my friends and strangers who became friends climbed Ngong' hills. Every part of my body hurts but at the same time I'm happy. It was hard being a first time for me but I made it! Double yay!! The serene extremely cold hills were a perfect place to think.
As I struggled up the hills when every part of my body was screaming stop and I mean EVERY MUSCLE! The mind worked and worked and worked. I have resolved that feeling sorry for being in a bad situation is as helpful as buying a gun to stop noisy neighbours. It may help for a few seconds but then it's off to jail for the rest of your life. So, no more of that. In that vein E is out of the picture for real. We can be friends (it's weird how a cynical woman like me is friends with her ex-es). It's time to start living. Leave the past behind and get on with life. It sucks that being a yo-yo in this whole break up to make - up shit has left him confused. You see when depression checks in some people seek comfort in healthy places but I don't.
When I was going through the motions after learning of the fibroids, it felt like it was a death sentence. When you learn your womb is a ticking time bomb and that after you get rid of the bomb you will have to have kids immediately and your ideal is a committed father to the kids. Then it's a double whammy! E and I were once in love, now I'm not sure I love him or love the fact that he loves me. Seeing that the need to be loved is a strong one.
On the hills I found hope and some clarity. E is not an option, dunno what will happen since I like somebody but I'm not sure what there is there. He also loves his women which is something I don't know how to handle and honestly can't deal. For now first things first. Get money, get rid of fibroids and we'll see about the child since relationships always happen when you least expect them.
Lunch was fab... we ate good food had a good laugh.. really good.. Now I'm enjoying a quiet night at home.
Back to work.. -
Rants
Posted: April 29, 2011, 5:53 am by mwihaki
I made assumptions... My bad... well this too is a learning experience!!!
Its annoying how I keep doing this... dunno why he’ s soo attractive to me.. I know and have proven that I can keep him away and move on n I will continue to do so coz boy can he hurt me!!!
Damn it hurts to be doing this it truly does and every time I hope we have made a step forward he reminds me I’m wishfully maing the steps on my own he on the other hand wants everyone but me... Sad right.. ok enuff with the bs time to get mine...
BTW I'm opening a new chapter... E is out... looking forward to the new.. -
Losing
Posted: April 26, 2011, 5:33 am by mwihaki
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There's pain... and ...
Posted: April 25, 2011, 9:36 am by mwihaki
There's pain... and booze an I take valium...I dunno what to do.. I'm the kinda gal who sees the end game.. with this I dont..But for tonite al be the gal who just wants to have fun.. I know I won't get laid coz the person who will fuck me juz coz I breathe and he'll find that sexy is not around..or maybe ... -
I cant... I ...
Posted: April 25, 2011, 6:46 am by mwihaki
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I'm scared... ...
Posted: April 25, 2011, 6:43 am by mwihaki
I'm scared...
Dunno what to do to make it right...Actually I do.. but I'm scared shitless.. I have tried to keep a level head but now I'm fucked... How do I deal?
I cant... I have tried I have done but... I cant...
Why is it soooo hard? It will work out... It has to or I die... somehow death seems better... But I willl get over this... God help me..
Please I want my own kid...please let me have one... -
True dat...
Posted: April 22, 2011, 1:30 pm by mwihaki
Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won’t die. You will come to life. And don’t be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it’s their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don’t be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are
– Eckhart Tolle (A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose) -
Life
Posted: April 22, 2011, 5:03 am by mwihaki
Maybe I was never meant to give birth to my own kids... Maybe I was never meant to get a man who would be my companion for life... maybe... But today I will not compromise.. I will not... Get rid of the fibroids and then we'll see perhaps I'll meet my man and we'll be happy... Where is the father of my kids?
Why can't I meet a MAN... not an overgrown boy a MAN who will not shy away from responsibility... WHERE? -
My mind has deserted me.. my heart is broken..
Posted: April 12, 2011, 5:05 am by mwihaki
For some reason my head is blank when it comes to this particular script and because of that my heart is bleeding!
In other news I need to see the doc tomorrow because i'm cramping. Let's hope it's nothing serious. If only I was going in for liposuction then I'd walk in knowing exactly what the outcome will be or atleast the desired outcome.
Came across this http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2011/04/10/character-of-the-week-hafez.....
I swear can my mind please come back... frustrating as hell. I need to get laid! -
I'm home now..
Posted: April 3, 2011, 7:14 am by mwihaki
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Disturbia... part next... let's not number it...please!
Posted: March 18, 2011, 3:48 am by mwihaki
Introspection... self deception.. or maybe just the human need for love and affection has me all muddled up. Is there a shooting star for me to make a wish on? Some clarity please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do I want to take a leap? Why I'm I content with mediocrity and have I become too accustomed to nothing that the bar is now below the ground? If I can burst a nut or whatever you call it for girls then I call it a happy ending? Too many questions and no answers... Or maybe I don't want to accept the answers... Is there better out there? I'm I losing my diamond in search of shiny glass?? I will have another glass of wine thank you atleast therein I'm certain I won't find answers or questions for that matter!!!!!!!!!!!! -
Disturbia...
Posted: March 18, 2011, 3:42 am by mwihaki
Some events in the last couple of weeks have left me feeling vulnerable. Parts of me know that I will get over this but the stupidity is amazing.
Feeling mushy and perhaps the girlie love stories I have subjected myself to have something to do with this.... Who I'm I kidding they have everything to do with this!!!!! Got me wondering when is love right? when do we know when we have made the right decisions? Do we ever know? Do we sometimes settle for less?
I miss being loved the way E did.. I knew/ felt totally loved. Even when things were bad. He's a different kinda feelly and bad boy all in one. For instance when he wronged me he would do whatever it took to make it right. Or atleast he'd try... REALLY hard. I love that about him. He still loves and maybe by staying away and refusing him another chance then I'm losing out. I'm not even sure I believe that but God knows I think about it ALOT. Somehow I never get past the fact that he let me go... How much could he love me if he did? I'm I refusing myself a chance of a happy ever after.. kids and a dog? -
Blurrish blabber
Posted: March 16, 2011, 1:47 am by mwihaki
This post is the reason you shouldn't blog after drinking wine....
I'm at a point where the only thing that makes sense is my happiness. To achieve this, I have had to consume large amounts of mood altering substances if only to come to terms with the fact that happiness is a state of mind that shouldn't be searched for too hard... (Gulps wine).
Now, happiness has been elusive perhaps because I've over thought every freaking moment instead of enjoying it. when I stop analysing I start enjoying then at some point my mind checks in and I start analysing AGAIN!
It's hard to enjoy yourself when you realise you're the only one enjoying your jokes mainly because you have left out the details and gone straight to the punch or in my case flop line!!! So now, in my attempt to disguise the inability to tell a joke.. I tell them to myself and laugh out loud. No, this doesn't work either... I get weird stares! Just the other day I read a text and responded out loud to myself as opposed to texting back! Perhaps I should mortify people with my jokes as opposed to my 'self indulgent thought out loud thoughts... hmmm mission 2011 unveilled!
I'm demanding in a subservient manner (I dare not say passive aggresive)... Mind boggling? Yes to me to... Let me expound instead of saying... get me a damn drink.. I'll say don't you think it would be nice if you got me a drink... the answer is more often than not negative...'shrug'..
I really mean to be more aggressive but more often than not the desired outcome defeats the effort. why expend so much energy when all the desired outcome really is for me to lie about and not go to the fridge? Defeats the purpose... No? Next time maybe.. or no.. most likely... -
Lusty love...
Posted: March 16, 2011, 1:24 am by mwihaki
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Bullshit
Posted: March 15, 2011, 3:26 pm by mwihaki
I am neck deep in bullshit. I'm drowning but I will get strength I will get out. I know I will.. I have no choice...
I am highly unmotivated. I have tried and no matter how hard I try I seem to get further off the mark. Giving up is not in my DNA. I just don’t know how to do that so I won’t hang up my boots I will just try harder.
A little encouragement will go a long way. I will have to dig for it deep within myself.
Where do I dig up self confidence from when I seem to have it entangled in the bullshit I'm going through! it's harder to get out of a mess when all you think of is how bad you are at solving anything! I'm I a bad write or just highly unmotivated. when you get to the point of 'fuck this' then you muat get out of that 'place' before you get ruined... I need to come out of this better.
I need to... I just do... Where is the magic genie with all the answers?? If you find him tell hime Serah needs him. BADLY. -
Nothing serious...
Posted: March 10, 2011, 3:27 am by mwihaki
Well.. It has been an interesting coupla months. To say that my life has been a slow whirlwind is to put it mildly.. Everything that started out as really big and bad has somehow melted and become inconsequential. That which started out as small and nothing has somehow graduated..
Not all bad though. I have learnt to walk away from battles that will only take up energy and produce no results and because of this I have become removed from my surroundings. This is both good and bad. Good because it rarely causes me grief and bad because it rarely brings me joy too. I’m constatntly in a state of blah... only work elicits strong emotions! Now I have learnt that most times joy and pain come from the same source and to accept I have to accept the other. Now to get the courage to do this...
Met someone nice... problem is I don’t like nice much because I’m not nice I don’t know how to handle nice. I don’t want to tip toe around the person so as not to hurt them. Truth be told I’d much rather be myself.. whoever that is...
But then again... I over think EVERYTHING... Well not e-v-eryth-i-ng... -
This too is life..
Posted: January 25, 2011, 1:45 pm by mwihaki
This morning was beautiful. To think that I was dreading it so much. I couldn't sleep, not purely out of fear but also my neighbours were being arseholes.
I received a letter from auctioneers and this was the morning they were to come. I imagined I would be woken up by numerous men breaking down my door, hurling insults, sticks and stones.
That didn't happen. What happened was I woke had a nice leisurely shower. Tiptoeing around trying to wake my company then had a lengthy chat and left for work. Nice...huh?
The problems haven't gone, but today the auctioneers have been called off. I'm still in debt. Still in trouble but it's only STUFF right? I love the stuff though. -
Lusty love?
Posted: January 24, 2011, 10:03 pm by mwihaki
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Where did I go wrong?
Posted: January 16, 2011, 7:29 pm by mwihaki
I can’t seem to make right decisions.
It’s almost like I know what’s right and I go ahead and do the wrong thing. It’s almost like I’m not happy till I’m unhappy. Odd thing though, I do want success in love and yet I’m pushing away the one person who can give me that. Spend time with someone who feels jack all for me and I don't mind that coz then I have no expectations and don't need to invest in this 'thing'.The minute I fall in love al be so gone and al find a hot 25 year old to orgasm me senseless so I can get over him.
I want loads of money and yet I only take jobs I love and not money jobs. which to me seems self defeating.
Atleast am working out again... -
Rant
Posted: December 9, 2010, 4:24 pm by mwihaki
So I'm using my best tools... pen, paper and of course computer to get even with some people who royally screwed me. I have tried to forgive and forget, beg God to unleash his wrath on them (this might have worked - according to reliable sources- they have encountered numerous problems..;) } nothing seems to work, every once in awhile, when I'm sitting and reflecting it all comes back. It's time to let go and find closure. Hence I'm going to create a show, make money and get satisfaction as I ruthlessly massacre the characters. Lucky for them I'm not a well trained Navy Seal or they would disappear! oooohhhhhssssaaaaa!! I feel better already! -
Random randomness randomly
Posted: December 9, 2010, 3:37 pm by mwihaki
Hmmm... where do I start... ok some weeks back I started liking this guy. He is interesting, moody and thinks I’m gorgeous. The down side is that he likes a million girls and acts like he is a teenager. All the same I like him. Now I understand the thing they say about bad boys... boys being the operative word here since he is built like a standard six boy. Holding him is tres weird coz it doesn’t have the effect of ‘I’m here for you baby’ it’s more like I am the one who is here for him and I will protect him. Btw I’m a full size 14 and he is well... a size – small boy—although the sex is mind blowing in a deeply satisfying way and I like his demeanour. We have good conversations when we both crack through our shells and reach out. Enough already about my confusing sex life. I’m trying to enjoy it without over thinking it coz if I will run and kill it even though it’s working. Or is it? That’s the confusing bit.
Went for a meeting today and it was disappointing to say the least. We’ll see how that turns out.
Changes 3 is happening and I will be a part of it! Yay! It’s weird though that Mnet is calling us directly. I wonder what’s up.. could it be that the adage ‘ what goes around comes around’ is at play already?? *sinister laugh*
My cousin is getting married this weekend. Got a double on the house and it turns out I’m going alone! NKT! I guess I will just make friends with the people there.... Looking forward to that will def do a post mortem.
So a couple of weekends ago we went to Naivasha.. I had a blast when I was not acting insanely obnoxious. To be honest I would have thrown me to the curb had I been the guy who was with me. Apparently I was walking around grabbing his arse, in my defence I love that ass! (Actual one.)
There’s a guy.. my ‘the one that got away’. Everytime I see him I’m back to the point where I liked him and he acts the same although I have to be careful coz it’s said that men can fake a relationship. So I met a coupla days ago, was thrown back there (the wine didn’t help) was about to give in when for some reason the guy I was talking about earlier came to my mind... Such timely coitus interuptus coz I was about to do something stupid that I’d have probably regretted..scratch I would have definitely regretted. -
When I'm trying hard to work and all I get is bull poop
Posted: October 11, 2010, 6:10 pm by mwihaki
I have all these things to do and yet I’m not so inclined. I woke up with psyche accomplished 3 of 7 tasks and now I’m sitting in front of my computer trying to force myself to get work done!!!
Geez... schedules for my new show- which we haven’t signed the dotted line yet coz the network is taking their time and they allocated us a slot already!!!
I have a new excuse for not working out... My gal borrowed my DVD player! Meanwhile the two-pack persists. I have tried everything from not eating veggies (good times), starch, junk and find the only time it worked was when I was working out! No how does that help me if the only time I have psyche to work is at most thrice a month?
We launched Changes season 2- It was fun. Many beautiful people, loads of wine. It was fun. Although after introducing myself to Gaetano, he hugs me and I ask “have we met?” Rather stunned at this unusual behaviour. We haven’t. Maybe it’s a Ugandan trait..... My pal stole the changes banner it now sits in her living room.. and she dumped me in the bar where I met a Somali man...*snort* There’s only 2 cool Somalis- Ayan and K’Naan.
Nairobi Half Life is almost complete at least the writing phase and since I won’t be joining them in the production phase then I look forward to the launch... Now that I’m writing I don’t get to travel to the festivals which is certainly not good.. I should start directing.. Nah I prefer writing and producing.
Now I truly need to get back to work!! -
Letter to my unborn child
Posted: September 30, 2010, 2:08 am by mwihaki
Baby.. I yearn to know you.. I yearn to hold you, love you and nurture you. All that a mother to be wants is a healthy baby.. both physically and emotionally..
The world is a harsh place but it's also beautiful.
If you can find yourself soon enough then you will find happiness.
Do not let anyone bring you down.They all have a battle the y're fighting.
Enjoy the moments... Love with all of you.
Forgive and forget..
But at the end of the day realise you are human and are not perfect.
Mama will love through it all... as you are.. never expecting you to be perfect..
I yearn to hold you... Know you... Nurture you and love you..
Mama will always love u... -
Of riches...
Posted: September 15, 2010, 8:32 am by mwihaki
A friend of mine turns to me and says how lucky I am that the geriatrics in the bar we are in are interested in me.. Half shocked and very annoyed I ask how so...
He goes on to explain that the rich old men can buy me houses and plots of land and all I have to do is flash a tittie.... So I think to myself my education has now been reduced to titty flashing power? Or who can buy a better, firmer bra? Victoria secrets or Moi Avenue boutiques and my life will be set?
So it came down to what Do I want from life? Obviously the comfort of knowing I don't owe anyone rent but there are limits as to how I get there.... I will NOT get into a relationship... physical or otherwise where I get with a man my fathers/Grandfathers age just so I can get that house now rather than later....
Don't be fooled I am materialistic in my own way.. but will never suck or entertain blue pill popping old gentlemen *farts*.. Just for their money.
In the event that I fall in love with one... Then I will have acquired all said property from a *un*healthy relationship... -
Lonely or bored?
Posted: September 14, 2010, 10:21 pm by mwihaki
So it's hit me that I'm missing human interaction. Not much just sitting with people and laughing. They could be friends, acquaintances or interesting strangers. Whys is this? Is it normal or I'm I getting to a point where I'll start collecting cats?
The last time that happened, I went to my local. Don't remember if that urge was satisfied. This is not a moment to unleash the black book coz I may be a little vulnerable and in this state make things into what they are not. Perhaps he pours me a glass of wine and I think 'oh, so sweet definitely a keeper, no matter that he scratches his balls every five minutes. I will unteach him that...
Nah... I'll stay and stalk my friends on facebook. It's a little embarrassing when you comment on apicture you weren't tagged on and there's a puzzled look... like how the heck did you see that.... -
Lonely or bored?
Posted: September 14, 2010, 10:21 pm by mwihaki
So it's hit me that I'm missing human interaction. Not much just sitting with people and laughing. They could be friends, acquaintances or interesting strangers. Whys is this? Is it normal or I'm I getting to a point where I'll start collecting cats?
The last time that happened, I went to my local. Don't remember if that urge was satisfied. This is not a moment to unleash the black book coz I may be a little vulnerable and in this state make things into what they are not. Perhaps he pours me a glass of wine and I think 'oh, so sweet definitely a keeper, no matter that he scratches his balls every five minutes. I will unteach him that...
Nah... I'll stay and stalk my friends on facebook. It's a little embarrassing when you comment on apicture you weren't tagged on and there's a puzzled look... like how the heck did you see that....
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Fish cakes
Alas a fish cake.
Yet more fish cakes
Guess what ... yeah ... fish cakes.
The end of the fish cakes
