a search for sanity or..........

• of waking up

  Posted: July 30, 2008, 11:19 pm by gal africana

  Pure consciousness is our spiritual essence. Being infinite and unbounded, it is also pure joy. Other attributes of consciousness are: pure knowledge, infinite silence, perfect balance, invincibility, simplicity, and bliss. This is our essential nature. Our essential nature is one of pure potentiality - Deepak Chopra
  
  It's not them, it's you. It's not there, it's here. It's not then, it's now - Unknown author
  
  Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all of the barriers within yourself
  that you have built against it - A course in miracles
  
  Being is not only beyond but also deep within every form as its innermost invisible and indestructible essence. This means that it is accessible to you now as your own deepest self, your true nature. But don't seek to grasp it with your mind. Don't try to understand it. You can know it only when the mind is still. When you are present, when your attention is fully and intensely in the Now, Being can be felt, but it can never be understood mentally. To regain awareness of Being and to abide in that state of "feeling-realization" is enlightenment - Eckhart Tolle
  
  Six months ago those words would only have made intellectual sense to me, I would have understood the words but not the meaning behind it. The more I understand, the more I know and the more I remember with every cell in my body.
  
  I'm just wondering how it is possible to have not seen and known this as I know it now? How is it possible to be so lost in the dream...unknowing...unconscious? Especially when knowing brings such freedom and joy?
  
  I was watching an episode of Oprah with a couple where the woman was an extreme compulsive hoarder. She had over 1000 sq m of stuff(anything and everything!) packed into their little 300 sq m home. They had mould growing into most of the walls in the house and mice nests (yeeeelch!)! I was watching her going through the trauma of having to throw out stuff that she didn't even need, wondering what I could learn from her when a great analogy came to mind:
  
  I feel like I'm going through the same process of throwing things out...only my things are my thoughts...every one of those unconsciously conditioned thoughts...pulled up, examined to determine their value and worth and chucked out if deemed to be lacking.
  
  I'm slowly becoming aware of all the societal conditioning that serves no purpose at all, other than maintaining limiting and fearful thought patterns. I'm rediscovering the empowering beliefs of love, peace and abundance that are innate. I'm slowly learning to trust my body and my spirit first and foremost...to be be my own point of entry into my universe.
  
  I'm learning to be, to allow and to resist nothing. It all feels like I'm learning to walk again...with all the falls and subsequent knee scrapes, but also the elation of small and big wonderful successes.
  
  Here's to me being able to run one day :-)
  
  
  
  

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