Delusions of Grandeur

• Awesome!

  Posted: December 31, 2008, 2:02 am by chi

  soundtrak: pnau :: embrace ft. ladyhawe (fred falke and miami horror remix)

  i sit on the floor of my room, typing from my new macbook pro. i guess i forgot to mention that al bought me this wonderful machine for christmas. considering that i really wanted lost season four and i wasn’t expecting a computer at all, when i opened his homemade giftcard that was an IOU, i burst into tears. you guys don’t even know how much my dell restricted me. the fact that i’m typing this and listening to the soundtrak song at the same time and not waiting for the words that i just typed to appear on the screen is awesome… so awesome! i’m so grateful that my brother got me this… he doesn’t even know.

  anyways, other than that, pretty much working through the holidays. happy new year y’all (there’s some maryland for you y’all)

  peace.

• 2008

  Posted: December 26, 2008, 7:56 pm by chi

  soundtrak: radiohead :: reckoner

  what can i say about 2008? i think this was one of the most unremarkable years for me. in january, i was already officially out of my graduate program, but the more time that passes, i find that it still affects me, daily even. and other stuff that happened that i will not talk about here, but elsewhere.
  i put off apply for school for another year… or more like extended it for another year. i cannot, cannot get this school idea out of my head. i thought that maybe i should move on with my masters, but God won’t allow me to do it. i know i can do this. i’m a hard worker, i have the passion; i want this. i just want my time in the sun. i want to be seen. i know it’s really rare for that to happen, especially in the science world, but i just want it. even to peruse it, i want it.

  anyways, i wonder if this unremarkable year is due to the fact that i didn’t set any definite resolutions goals for myself this year. definite goals rather than vague resolutions; the key to this is to remind yourself of your goals everyday. the more you remind yourself, the more thinking, time and energy you put towards your goals and eventually, before you realize it, you have reached them. kind of like positive thinking.. (look at me, i have all the tools and yet i don’t use them). of course, this is why i didn’t do as well as i needed to on the GREs; my mind was elsewhere. i was studying, but i couldn’t focus. it wasn’t a surprise i couldn’t focus during the test.
  so i need to change my way of thinking. i’m setting goals as we speak. i will not make them public, but i know if i dwell on them daily, things will happen.

  i already know that 2009 will be far better than 2008.

  in the chiiq network:
  - chiiq.com: chi’s top 10 of 2008: music/books
  - D.O.G.: what i learned in 2007
  - D.O.G. retro: 2005/2006 in review

  peace.

• (Sleep) Deprived

  Posted: December 12, 2008, 7:21 am by chi

  soundtrak: thievery corporation :: the forgotten people

  - this week, i have already worked more than 40 hours (and no, i don’t get overtime… such is science sometimes…). if i look at one more florescent slide, my eyes are going to pop out of my head in protest. being the most senior one in lab this week (boss was at a conference… lots of conferences this time of year), i had to make sure things were running smoothly with everyone else (and basically that nothing expensive breaks, which almost did of course…), which had me coming into work at ungodly hours. i think in total, i’ve only had about 10 hours of sleep this week (if you count the pass out that i had earlier this evening… i don’t know what happened…next thing i know, it was hour later…).
  - i don’t know if things are getting better or worse… and what things? life, work, family…. i’m not sure how to measure a situation or issue (which issue?) getting ‘better’ or ‘worse’. in clarity and understanding of the issue? in acceptance of the inevitable? i can tell you that everything is pretty much amusing to me these days, if it be ‘good’ or ‘bad’. it seems all i can do is laugh (sometimes in people’s faces… which makes it even more amusing to me) and move on to the next moment… so that makes it ‘good’, right?
  - mr. f helps me purchase a new tv this past weekend. if you know me and big purchases, you know it’s hard for me to part with money in the first place, especially large quantities of it. i think i had been talking about getting a new tv (or a digital converter; that can give you a guess to how old my old tv was…) for about a month now. 37” is large to me (especially for a bedroom tv), and i love it. i love the little ’sams.ung’ chime it makes when it turns on. it’s good. now, to get that new ma.cbook pro (considering, i had to wait about 7 minutes for my computer to ‘think’ as it pondered if it could run iTunes and firefox at the same time…. i can’t do this anymore…)
  - so this blog is pretty bare. i moved my reading and music lists to chiiq.com (as if you type in chiiq.com, it will take you there and not here). i deleted my links page because i seriously need to update that.

  ok, i’m kinda done. i need some more sleep hours.

  peace.

• Changes

  Posted: December 7, 2008, 3:43 am by chi

  soundtrak: phoenix :: if i ever feel better

  no way am i tech-savvy, but i am rather intuitive.

  i decided in the shower this morning that i’m changing chiiq.com up. i have crudely created two more blogs on this site, one which will be strictly personal and require passwords and another more to the mundane-ness ultilty of the whole site, that will function as a main page.

  this has been something that i have been thinking about for awhile now, so i’m happy to get the ball rolling. more changes to come.

  peace.

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