Delusions of Grandeur

• November Reviewed

  Posted: November 28, 2008, 5:52 pm by chi

  soundtrak: mingle: new fish

  so i’m sitting here in lab this black friday morning (oh, don’t act like this not a common occurrence; i do this all the time). i’m not a big time shopper (and i think this is how i get myself in trouble every christmas; i wait until the last minute) and i had some work to finish before i go to lunch with some of the biochem crew.

  thanksgiving was okay. i feel like with everything going on, things are starting to even out and calm down for me, which is good. jan remarked to me the other day, “you haven’t had an anxiety attack in awhile.” granted, she’s only seen me have one, but i’ve been handling my anxiety much better; getting things done, talking out problems and issues. despite the little things, life is good, i can’t complain.

  from where i last left off, i didn’t do as well as i wanted to on the GREs in october, so with my mentor, i decided that i would prolong my application process for admission in 2010. at first, i was stressing out about it (i will turn 30 and i’m still going to be doing this thing) and people that i told looked at me like i was out of my mind. but, you know what, this is what i want to do. i could be 30 or 50, but i’m still going to do it. in the end, i think know that it was a good decision. there is still alot that i need to learn, even in my field and will only make me a stronger candidate when i do interview.

  it didn’t help that my car was having issues the whole month of october; by the end of the month, i spent two paychecks on repairs. i was not happy, but i’m happy that i still do have a car that i can drive. i’m also glad that i did have the money to fix it; i could be driving around with a broke car.
  jan also observed, “you’re the kind of person that doesn’t need alot to make you happy.” and it’s true, i suppose. i like it simple; i don’t need the next best thing, just something that will get me by. of course, there are alot of things that i want, but i really don’t need.

  as i abhor human contact (ok, not so much, but just enough), i have a tendency to neglect my friends. so this month i really made an effort to hang out with people; i helped MD shop and move the rest of her stuff in her new apartment downtown, i went with abbs to the new ca.ptiol vistor center, and out with CB to a new vegan restaurant (absolutely heaven!). i just need to be a better friend though.

  hmm, what else… of course, our new president. i don’t know; i don’t think it’s hit me yet. i wasn’t as excited as others thought i should be (”especially being kenyan and all…” yeah, i know). but i think it was great for moms, who just became a citizen and it was her first time to vote; it was a life changing moment.

  anyways, more later i suppose. i am here to work.

  peace.

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Fish cakes

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Yet more fish cakes

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