Delusions of Grandeur

• November Reviewed

  Posted: November 28, 2008, 5:52 pm by chi

  soundtrak: mingle: new fish

  so i’m sitting here in lab this black friday morning (oh, don’t act like this not a common occurrence; i do this all the time). i’m not a big time shopper (and i think this is how i get myself in trouble every christmas; i wait until the last minute) and i had some work to finish before i go to lunch with some of the biochem crew.

  thanksgiving was okay. i feel like with everything going on, things are starting to even out and calm down for me, which is good. jan remarked to me the other day, “you haven’t had an anxiety attack in awhile.” granted, she’s only seen me have one, but i’ve been handling my anxiety much better; getting things done, talking out problems and issues. despite the little things, life is good, i can’t complain.

  from where i last left off, i didn’t do as well as i wanted to on the GREs in october, so with my mentor, i decided that i would prolong my application process for admission in 2010. at first, i was stressing out about it (i will turn 30 and i’m still going to be doing this thing) and people that i told looked at me like i was out of my mind. but, you know what, this is what i want to do. i could be 30 or 50, but i’m still going to do it. in the end, i think know that it was a good decision. there is still alot that i need to learn, even in my field and will only make me a stronger candidate when i do interview.

  it didn’t help that my car was having issues the whole month of october; by the end of the month, i spent two paychecks on repairs. i was not happy, but i’m happy that i still do have a car that i can drive. i’m also glad that i did have the money to fix it; i could be driving around with a broke car.
  jan also observed, “you’re the kind of person that doesn’t need alot to make you happy.” and it’s true, i suppose. i like it simple; i don’t need the next best thing, just something that will get me by. of course, there are alot of things that i want, but i really don’t need.

  as i abhor human contact (ok, not so much, but just enough), i have a tendency to neglect my friends. so this month i really made an effort to hang out with people; i helped MD shop and move the rest of her stuff in her new apartment downtown, i went with abbs to the new ca.ptiol vistor center, and out with CB to a new vegan restaurant (absolutely heaven!). i just need to be a better friend though.

  hmm, what else… of course, our new president. i don’t know; i don’t think it’s hit me yet. i wasn’t as excited as others thought i should be (”especially being kenyan and all…” yeah, i know). but i think it was great for moms, who just became a citizen and it was her first time to vote; it was a life changing moment.

  anyways, more later i suppose. i am here to work.

  peace.

• Q and A

  Posted: November 13, 2008, 2:55 am by chi

  soundtrak: q-tip :: move

  (while i work on some things…)

  Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
  jan probably… lol

  What kind of car do you drive?
  altima.

  Have you ever had a garage sale?
  no

  What color is your iPod?
  black (like me!)

  What kind of dog do you have?
  no dog/no pets

  What’s for dinner tonight?
  golden grahams probably; have a penchant for cereal this month

  What is the last drink you drank?
  water, but really mango lemonade.

  Last time you were sick?
  two weeks ago.

  How long is your hair?
  shoulder length.

  Are you happy right now?
  just here.

  What did you say last?
  to another person: “you need to take iron!” (to my mom)
  to myself: ’scoooobilicious!’

  Who came over last?
  jan for dinner; i haven’t had friends over lately.

  Do you drink beer?
  nope

  Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
  all the time.

  What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
  my ‘kenya’ one

  What is in your pocket?
  43 cents

  Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
  don’t have one/not looking for one and noone will introduce me because i refuse to let them.

  Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with?
  MD, but she calls all the time. so Mic probably.

  What DVD is in your DVD player?
  usually it’s pride and prejudice, but i think it’s the nike warrior workout, if not rael pilates system 17.

  What’s something fun you did today?
  what’s fun? no… um… what’s fun?

  What do you think of when you hear the word “meow”?
  ‘testy..’

  What are you listening to right now?
  watching tv, but music-wise right now, the new coldplay, q-tip and common.

  What have you had to drink so far today?
  water.

  When is your birthday?
  feb. 1st.

  What’s the area code for your cell phone?
  301

  Where did you buy the shirt you’re wearing now?
  it was a gift from timon.

  Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror?
  parking tag

  How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
  10+

  What are you going to do after this?
  probably watch tv, write and/or read.

  What is something you need to go shopping for?
  clothes. desperately. but i don’t like clothes shopping

  Do you like pickles?
  yes

  How about olives?
  yes

  What is your favorite kind of gum?
  stride

  Do you have any tan lines?
  not right now… i avoid light… but i do tan.

  Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher?
  it’ll come to me…

  Who was the last person to call you baby?
  some random guy i wasn’t interested in anyway…

  When you’re at the grocery store do you used the self checkout?
  when i can. people are slow and i despise unnecessary human interaction.

  Has anyone ever sang to you?
  no… ok, yes, but i didn’t care for it.

  Has anyone ever given you roses?
  uh… i don’t remember

  If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
  maybe

  What is your favorite color?
  surprisingly, i don’t really have one. i like many.

  What color are your eyes?
  brown

  What is a compliment you receive way too often?
  my beautiful smile/clear skin/young face/young looking. okay. i get it.

  How tall are you?
  5′ 5-1/2” exactly. has not changed ever.

  Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
  my mom. don’t remember when.

  Do you like your parents?
  they’re okay people…

  Why did your last relationship end?
  ha.

  Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
  my mom

  Where is the furthest place you’ve traveled?
  kenya

  Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
  sleep. immensely.

  Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
  my dad’s coloring, but my mom’s bone structure.

  How long does it take you to shower?
  20 minutes about

  Can you do splits?
  kinda.

  Can you use the grill?
  yes.

  Are you flexible?
  kinda.

  What movie do you want to see?
  eh… nothing good out right now. maybe that new bond movie.

  What did you on New Years Eve 2007?
  at home, watching the ball drop.

  Was your mom a cheerleader?
  no

  What is the last letter of your middle name?
  o (don’t you wish you knew…)

  How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
  5 hour nap + 3 hour sleep = 8 hours; as long as it adds up, right?

  Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
  always.

  Are you scared of flying?
  no, but i don’t like it.

  What do you sleep in?
  old shirts with no sleeves.

  Do you have any tatoos?
  nope

  Have you ever been to Los Angeles?
  yes. three times.

  What jewelry do you wear all the time?
  my kenya bracelet.

  What is your favorite song at the moment?
  death and all his friends by coldplay

  What song do you HATE?
  lots of them…

  Do you like chocolate?
  of course, but i don’t eat it.

  Are you easy to get along with?
  depends. respect me and i respect you.

  Any up coming events you’re excited about?
  um… sleep?

  peace.

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