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Timed

Posted: January 31, 2008, 7:08 pm by chi

soundtrak: taylor mcferrin :: georgia

(caption: 38′ 05” out of 3hrs.)

- i’ve been really busy lately. experiments picking up, i guess since i terminate in this lab by the end of march. trying to update my CV and cover letter by the end of the second week in feb. i also need to organize my lab notebook and make sure it’s up to date. i’m pushing back things because i don’t know where my money will be coming from in april. it’s disconcerting.
- tomorrow is my birthday. yay. everybody wants to celebrate, but they don’t know where to get vegan cake from, so i’ve been getting alot of, “why don’t i just give you the money and you bake the cake yourself?” who bakes their own birthday cake?
- B called me earlier this morning, just after i had finished part one of my experiment today. “when is your birthday?” he asked. “tomorrow.” “you lie!” he retorted. wtf? i’m not a liar; i don’t know, i just can’t do it. and he knows this (and why is he calling me?!). i think he still likes to get a rise out of me.
- last week, i got a rejection letter from one of the three schools that i replied to. you know it’s a rejection letter; it comes early and it’s paper thin… nothing good comes out of paper thin letters. what was funny was they actually used the word ‘reject’ in the letter. i don’t feel too bad about it, but every time i come home, i’ve been praying not to get another one.
- went to the car show last week with T and aabs; we had alot of fun and i was pretty much acting a fool, taking pictures of myself in cars like i owned them. the last time i saw T was when he came over to the house to pick up a CD; he met the parents. mom likes him alot, but i tell her it’s complicated. i don’t know however, for me or for him. or maybe both.

ok. back to work.

peace.
Something New

Posted: January 22, 2008, 4:55 pm by chi

soundtrak: matthew dear :: elementary lover (dj koze remix)

- i know i have yet to post my new 101/1001 list on here yet, but i have already crossed two things off my list already. yesterday, i went to my first GU basketball game; also, it was my first time going to the mci/veri.zon center. i know, it’s sad. i’ve lived in this area practically most of my life and i’ve never been to the veri.zon center. remember, i have yet tour the washington monument. i know… anyways, the game was good. i went with aabs and i clapped because i didn’t want to lose my voice again (i just got it back). we won by 2.
- i know i’ve mentioned it before; my family and i are early risers. i don’t know if it’s because my parents grew up on separate farms where you had to wake up at the break of dawn, but if you dare sleep past 8am, you’re ‘wasting the day’ (as moms so lovingly yells at me whenever i do). it’s funny, because sunday, moms and i went to go visit my cousin and his new family in VA. so after our workout, she calls around 9am to see when we can come over. i wanted to stop her to tell her that it was too early; people are usually asleep, but i bit my tongue. lo and behold, i was right; everyone was fast asleep. i laugh because i came into work around 730 this morning (a personal ‘late’ for me) and sent emails about the car show this week and people are now emailing me back complaining that they haven’t even woken up yet… my bad, my bad… i’ve been up for 4 hours already.
- new d n’ b downloaded this weekend, so i hope to update the radio.blog soon. sometimes, i just sit and peruse the electronica section in iTunes and see what’s come out.

ok. on to the rest of my day.

peace.
Sick Day

Posted: January 18, 2008, 3:57 am by chi

soundtrak: lemongrass :: aloha

- i’ve been sick since last weekend, but i had a bunch of meetings lined up for the beginning of this week, so i pushed through it. as a result, a cold that was only supposed to last 3-4 days is still with me. my common cold is a common cycle to me; the first two days, i get incredibly fatigued, followed by laryngitis for the next two-three days, with post nasal drip for a day and sore throat the next. anyways, the laryngitis should have been gone by now, but my voice is still gone. i woke up late this morning due to the medication i took the night before, but i decided that i need to take a break.
- my family in kenya are safe and well and i’m grateful. my cousins who live here and were visiting right before the violence broke out returned safely home.
- i haven’t been writing lately. i just haven’t felt like writing that much, but i have these stories and ideas swirling in my head, but they seem to die by the time they reach my fingertips. but in my head, lives and stories and voices. sometimes they wake me up at night with a start. now i need to work on the transfer part.

- i realize that i have a serious problem just trying to relax. i just can’t do it. i haven’t seen a movie in theaters in months and i know i should watch season three of lost before it premieres in two weeks, but i can’t bring myself to set aside the time. my counselor says that if i continue down this path, i will certainly be taking some forced time off in the local hospital psych ward. i remember having this conversation with a friend of mine and simply put, he stated, “because it’s not important to you, you don’t give it time. i know that when something is important to you, you put the time and effort in it.” and it’s that simple; it’s true. but in the back of my head, i know it’s my health, mentally and physically. i don’t know.
- i’m waiting to hear back from schools; all i need is an interview. although i hate waiting, i feel like i’m in a good place. even if i don’t get in anywhere this fall upcoming, i will feel good, i think. i know that this is something i want, so much that it’s turned into something i need, like air, food and water. i need to see this dream to completion. every time i think “what if i stop here”, i see nothing because i know i couldn’t live with myself if i did stop.

- it’s that time of year again; washington auto show. i was contemplating taking a week off so i could do that ‘hands on’ win-a-car contest. eeh. i hope to get pictures from that though.
- talking about pictures, i’m going to try to make it a point to take more pictures more often. or at least post more pictures with my entries. because everything goes better with pictures.

peace.
Waiting

Posted: January 8, 2008, 5:07 pm by chi

soundtrak: yppah :: longtime

i find that i’m waiting for alot of things these days. waiting to hear back from schools, waiting to hear back about my job, waiting to hear back from my doctor, waiting to hear back from my family in Kenya (pray for them).
with all this waiting, i can’t think, i can’t write. so i choose to remain quiet.

but i’m still here.

peace.