Delusions of Grandeur

• Prep Time

  Posted: September 28, 2007, 12:01 am by chi

  soundtrak: london elektricity :: do you believe

  anybody that knows me knows that i’m a neat and meticulous person. maybe it’s just some control issues i have, but if i’m planning something, doing something or taking part in something, i have to know what’s going on and when and things have to be prepared. when i’m running an experiment, i like to have things prepared (labelled tubes, already made reagents) at least 2 hours before i run it. of course, some experiments don’t always work out this way. life doesn’t work out this way.

  i was watching tv last night, thinking about wednesday; if i only had a little bit of prep time, i would not be suffering from delayed onset heartache, when my cell rang. of course, it was in my messenger bag and i though it was a text message, but when the ring repeated, i searched for it. i missed the call.

  of all the people to call. at a time like this: B. all this time i had resisted the urge to call him myself and this fool finally picks up the phone to call. i called him back because i knew that he would continue to harass me over the course of several days until he reached me. we talked for awhile; he works closer to me now. he explained why he missed P and sol’s weddings.
  “i want to see you,” he finally confessed over the phone.
  “i don’t think that’s a good idea.” it’s never a good idea. B. starts out nice and loving, but then his needs comes out. he needs your acceptance, your time, your attention, even if he starts to act like an ass.
  “so i guess i’ll call you later then.” i didn’t say anything; not a yes or no. i wonder if i’ll pick up the phone next time. this week totally sucks.

  peace.

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